The Online Diary

Humpty Dumpty had a great fall!

2012-02-08T16:44:00.000+08:00

Last Friday, after our family dinner at IMM, yours truly had a great fall and landed on the butt at the carpark staircase. I didn't know what had happened, the only thing I had on my mind - safety of my baby. The excruciating pain, the worries, the shocked left me crying like a baby. Luckily for me, hubby was around to assist me up and aided me to walk. Thank god, I experienced no bleeding. As if baby knew my utmost concern, for 2hours straight, he has been kicking me non stop, as if telling me that he is alright inside. I had so much difficulties that night, trying to sleep, trying to pee, walk, that the next day, my dear husband took an emergency leave to send me to A&E. Doctor has confirmed that there isn't any signs of slip disc thus it may just be soreness which will last for quite awhile. As I am pregnant, no xray can be done and only able to take the normal panadol to help suppress the pain.

Few days has passed, I could say that pain is somehow bearable, I could move around now unaided though certain jerking movements may left me with such electrifying pain. I just hope that it will be alright for good in weeks to come. Insyaallah.

Happy birthday, my son!

2012-02-02T08:32:00.002+08:00

You gave life a different meaning when you came to our lives. You are my bittersweet memories. 5yrs has passed, and it seems so fast and soon you will be a role model to 2 of your younger siblings. No matter what you think of me Arian, one thing you should know, I love you more than you can ever imagine. I may not be a good mother for I have made so much mistakes as one, but I only pray and hope the very best for you. You have made us proud son, no matter how insignificant it maybe to others. Happy 5th Birthday Arian Danish. May Allah bless you with all the good things he can offer. Amin.

See how fast you have grown, my dear son!

Baby AR

2012-01-28T18:59:00.000+08:00

So we had our checkup today. Nice to see my gynae, what a gentleman! Baby is at a good position, weighing at 1.1kg at 27wks+, I am finally putting on more than 1kg weight gain and everything else is good. 4 more weeks to our next checkup and then time will definitely pass by very fast from there. I foresee myself giving birth early April (my EDD is end April), following my previous 2 births.

Baby name initial tentatively will be AR. But frankly, we have not finalize on the name as yet as Arian and Eva have different preference. Hope to get that settled before birth. And Arian got very excited for the first time when baby responded to his touch! He kept counting down the months, waiting for April to see his baby brother. Bless him!

Baby updates!

2012-01-13T02:16:00.001+08:00

Simply couldn't sleep at this hour hence here I am penning some updates on my No 3. Baby's active so far, especially during the night. My worries are now pretty much lesser now that I can feel his movements. All checkups showed good progress in his growth and I am very thankful for that. So far I only managed to put on around 2kg in total for weight gain thus his rapid weight gain is putting on pressure on my back! I am still going on strong with the housechores, sending and fetching kids from school, though at times I really felt tired and just wanna shut the world. My back is killing me, sometimes I experienced cramps on my left side. Anyways, we have narrowed down some names for baby. The only thing that I failed to do, is to confirm again with the gynae on baby's gender! Well detailed scanning showed that its a boy but I just wanna be sure. :)

At 26 weeks now, it seems that time is passing by so fast. In abt 3 months time, I will have a new addition to my family. My elder child has been counting down for the arrival of his baby brother. Bless him. As for me, as the days approaching nearer, I just had this fear feeling in me. I do not know why, maybe the thoughts of having an additional responsibility frightens me. I kept questioning myself, will I be a good mother to all of them? Can I give them what they need? What if they don't love me? So many things, yet not all have the answers. One thing for sure, Allah s.w.t is great. He have plans for this small family of mine and whatever obstacles he's gonna give me, I will go through it with faith. Insya'allah. How thankful I am to be blessed with such a supporting partner. My bestfriend, my husband. He has been a great supporting role in making sure that I am happy, my wellbeing taken care of, making sure he is helping me in whatever ways he can. He makes me feel...settled. I pray may this new year bring more luck/success to his career and he got the promotion he deserve. Insya'allah.

Right now, my house is in a mess and in an empty state with no proper furnishing. We will be undergoing a renovation come this February so right now, its the midst of packing period. 6 weeks away from my humble home, I hope I can survive! It excites us that we will be coming back to a whole new look and hopefully the whole reno work turns out really nice! We have decided not to move again hence the reno idea came about.

2012

2012-01-07T01:30:00.002+08:00

So this year, Arian will be in K1 and Eva in N1. Both kids have matured so much and I never once regretted the decision to stay put them in their current school. They have progressed steadily and I am pleased to know that both are also loving school and having fun with their peers. As a mom, I only want the best for my children and that will be the utmost importance.

This year, I targeted to send them to school by 9am everyday due to the fact that Arian is now in K1 (and its serious business for me..haha). So for the first week, we passed the test! :) Let's just hope that every week will be a successful timing for us especially now that I have a fix daily routine for them. I have also stopped Arian with outside enrichments as per his request. As a parent, I respect my son's decision as now he have the mind of his own. So any extra enrichments is kept within school hours, in school. (which we discussed and he agreed on). A blessing in disguise for me too as I no longer needed to rush here and there to send him. Less pressuring for me especially in my pregnant state. Weekend are free time for them, reading books, having fun and just relax their mind. Sunday will be the compulsory madrasah class for Arian. I will try my best not to join the "kiasu" parents clique who overwhelm their kids with too many enrichments and classes. I will only tackle issues if there is any worrying dilemma.

Happy New Year!

2011-12-31T00:57:00.030+08:00

2011 is coming to an end. What happened this year? For me, the biggest decision was to quit my full time job and giving up on a stable income to pursue a personal interest as well to take over the job of SAHM. My maid decided to went back after working with us for 3.5years. God bless her for not giving me problems and taking good care of the household and helping me out in any way she can. It saddens me that she's going back for good, as I have regarded her as part of my family. But I guess, there will come a time when such decision has to be made.

I must thank my hubby for giving such support for my decision as I know it may not be easy on him being the sole breadwinner but thanks to Allah, we managed just fine financially. The biggest blessing ever was when I found out that I am pregnant with my 3rd child. It was unexpected even though we knew we wanted to have a no 3. Such a blessing for this family, and we embrace it with an open heart. The first 3months of this pregnancy was not easy. Emotionally and financially. But we survived afterall. Alhamdullilah. And to make it sweeter, we found out during the detailed scan checkup that I am carrying a boy! Just as what we wanted it to be. How thankful we are to HIM for granting this wish for us and our firstborn.

2012 will be a better year for us, insyaallah. With the coming of our dragon baby, Arian's circumcision, our house renovation and another year of me being SAHM, I know we will do just fine. Together as a unit, stronger than ever. As I grow a year older, I am also slowly taking a step back from the "social" life that I used to have. I wish to withdraw myself slowly from the "advanced technology of the social networking" which I personally feel full of dramas and such. Having my family and closed friends with me is more than enough to filled my life with contentment. I want to be a better muslimah, a mother and wife. I am soon approaching 30s and adding 1 more to my responsibility, so the only thing I wish for is a good change in me. Insyaallah.

May 2012 be a better year for all of you!

We turned 8!

2011-12-19T01:36:00.039+08:00

On this date, 8yrs ago, we became husband and wife. At 20yrs of age, I am giving up my youth, my social life, career, to married to this man whom I had dated for just 3yrs. It was a disaster at the beginning with a lot of problems arising one after another. But Allah has plans for us, for better things in future. We survived though wounded. 8yrs on, here we are, stronger than ever, with 2 beautiful kids (and soon 1 more!), a bright future, a nice home and importantly, we still have each other. I could never ask for more. And how thankful I am to learnt from past experiences to become a strong willed and positive person I am now.

Our imperfections strengthen the marriage, one way or another. We adjust, we adapt and we changed for the better. He is my bestfriend, my enemy (for being so irritating! haha), my pillar and my partner for life. For good or bad times. I love you Muhamad Firuz. We have come a long way, and still emerge a "winner". I am thankful to have you in my life. I could never find anyone to be a better partner in crime. Ya Allah, to you we are forever grateful, for giving us so much patience to overcome obstacles and stand where we are now. And to you we are grateful for the blessings you have bestowed upon this small family of ours. To many more good years to us. Amin.

Hong Kong Day 6 & 7

2011-12-09T00:27:00.002+08:00

The final 2 days of our holiday. These 2 days are spent more on shopping, checking out the Ladies Market for some cheap stuffs/clothes, and unfortunately more shopping..! We had so much fun together, especially since this is our first trip together 3 families (love them lots!). It is sad when the day has come for us to go back hometown but with god's will, we will soon gather again for another fun filling holiday! My plan for our 2012 family holiday destination: Dubai. However it will still depend how we're doing financially for that year. I still hope to fulfil my firstborn wish to meet his cousins whom he misses terribly. Insyaallah, we will try our best.

Hong Kong Day 5

2011-12-07T00:13:00.003+08:00

Disneyland time!! We slept early the day before and kids were pretty excited knowing that its finally Disneyland day! However, weather really sucks half of the day as its HOT, which was really unpredictable as it is supposed to be winter season. We managed it though and it only gets better when its about evening time. As it is the school holiday season, queueing up can be pretty horrible for some rides specifically those at the Toy Story Land, which had just been opened a month before. There isn't any halal food joint there but we survived with vegetarian indian food and thanks to our dearest cousin for packing some home cook lontong/rendang/sambal ikan bilis (brought from Singapore and kept refrigerated) for lunch. We stayed till 8pm to catch the fireworks and I managed to grab the delicious mickey mouse waffles before heading back home via the train.

Hong Kong Day 3 & 4

2011-12-05T23:35:00.037+08:00

Day 3: So the plan was supposed to be a trip to Ocean Park. But because I've been there during the last trip, I decided to give it a missed and let the rest continue with it. Since there isn't any backup plans, I suggested to checked out the Element Mall. BUT before that, we make way to have lunch at Kowloon City. Delicious treat but venue was a bit far off and not convenient. We took cab to go over and after lunch, accompanied cousin to looked for his Arai helmet (which is cheaper compared to Singapore!) as well as raincoat (haha, ya what were we thinking right??) Basically it is just a shopping day for us. Weather wasn't too good as it keep on raining so we stayed indoor most of the time.

Day 4: Another day spend shopping! This time we checked out the Harbour City Mall which is near to the hotel we stayed in. A huge mall nevertheless, and we had a hard time finding some boutiques that we wanted to checked out. Hubby managed to grab the Onitsuka Tiger shoes and Adidas jacket that he's been wanting and happy that it is at a good price. I got my Longchamp's bags that is much cheaper that in Singapore. We all came back happy with our shopping loot! We too concluded that Hong Kong is a shopping heaven... :)

Hong Kong Day 2

2011-12-04T21:40:00.061+08:00

So what did we do today? The last trip here, we didn't get to visit Ngo Ping 360. So this time, I make sure that it actually happen. And it did. We were late and behind scheduled time, and all of us reached Tung Chung station slightly around 11am. We have planned to have our lunch up at the Ngo Ping village where there is a halal joint called Ebeneezer Kebab & Pizzeria. However to our disappointment, the queue were really really long. All these people are queing up to get the cable car tickets! We queued for almost an hour before one of the staff approached us and asked if we are keen to get the crystal cabin package (2 way cable car ride, monkey's tale entrance ticket and walking with buddha) at HKD250 per adult (more than what we wanted to get) But the best part, we do not have to join others in the queue! So we grabbed the opportunity, paid and soon enough we already boarded the cable car. We could probably have saved around 1-2hours of waiting time :) The crystal cabin really freaked me out in a way. I show you why.

Its a clear glass bottom! In it, I sat quietly trying not to freak out so much as the cable car went up higher. The whole journey took us around 20mins. But what a beautiful scenery from way up high!

They are people who actually trekked up to Ngo Ping! Took them around 5hrs.

Ngo Ping is located at Lantau Island so pretty near to the airport.

Our lives hanging on the cable wire..hehe

There's nothing much up there. Even the monkey's tale show were pretty short and I guess the kids may loved it. We just walked around for awhile and less than 3hours we are back down. And the queue back was even more crazy! And again, how thankful we all are to bought the so called express tickets.

So, all 3 families split up to shop at Citygate Outlet mall. Time given: 3hours. For us, we mainly went to Quicksilver/Roxy, Crocs, Adidas, Burberry as its quite cheap over there. Then we hang out at Haagen Daz to have dessert in that already cold weather! Around 9pm, all of us took the train back home. Its been a tiring day. How exhausted even from shopping!

Till the next entry..on Hong Kong Day 3!

Hong Kong Day 1

2011-12-03T00:12:00.027+08:00

And so comes the day! We woke up really early around 3.30am to get the kids and ourselves ready. Mum was kind enough to send us to the airport with our 3 luggages and 2 strollers. We reached T3 at around 5.30am, just nice to meet up with the rest and do a checked in. Depart by SQ890 at 7.40am.

Flight was pretty smooth and we reached Hong Kong airport at around 11am. Pretty fast as compared to our previous experience with Jetstar. Nothing to rave abt SQ though. The food was pretty bleah, the only advantage is the entertainment system which kept the kids occupied. Took a cab per family and paid around HKD260-HKD280. Checked in to Kowloon Hotel which we paid around SGD170 per nite for early bookings. Kowloon Hotel is located strategically at the Tsim Tsa Tsui area. MTR station is right at our door step and halal food is pretty easy to find, if you don't mind the indian and middle eastern cuisine. On top of that, it is a shopping haven area! On the negative note, the room is really really small. With our luggages and 2 strollers, we hardly find space to walk in it. But for the kids, as long as there is bathtub, they are happy!

So on the first day, we walked around the hotel area, visited Avenue of Stars at night for the symphony of lights which started everyday at 8pm (no timing difference with Singapore). Weather is still pretty ok for us to bear since its only the start of the winter season. We ate dinner (serving starts from 6-9pm) at the Osman Ramju Sadick Islamic Centre which serves Halal chinese cuisine. Took the mtr (equivalent to our mrt service) and dropped off at Wanchai station and walked for about 10mins to reached our destination. Finding halal food in Hong Kong is not that difficult but you have to travel for it. And usually, prices are not cheap too but well, you are pretty much left with no choice, isn't it? We paid abt HKD240 for our meal which is equivalent to SGD40.

Address: Islamic Centre Canteen. 5/F, Osman Ramju Sadick Islamic Centre. 40 Oi Kwan Rd, Wanchai HK. Tel no: (852) 2834-8211.

Avenue of Stars is a walking distance from our hotel so right after the show, we walked back and rested for the day. So it is a pretty free and easy going first day.

Baby's Gender

2011-12-01T13:59:00.003+08:00

On 29th November, the much awaited detailed scanning finally came. We went for our appointment at TMC at 1030am. Feeling pretty nervous abt it actually. Not much abt knowing the gender but more of the baby's conditions. Thank God, everything is fine, baby is healthy and active. And its a BOY!

This news came as a surprise for me and hubby actually as both of us have this pretty weird feeling that its gonna be a girl. We wanted a boy if given a choice for Arian to have a playmate. Allah granted our wish, and here we are accepting the news with happiness. Eva Sofea will remain as our one and only princess. Importantly though, baby is doing well and I am certified fit to travel for our upcoming holiday. So now, since the gender's out, I can plan to decorate the kids rooms, get their respective carseats and also a suitable pram for the baby. We have also narrowed down a few names, but still pretty much in discussion. Alhamdullilah syukur, I couldn't ask for more. Our life is blessed, we are happy to have 3 to called our own :)

2 more weeks to....

2011-11-14T15:37:00.000+08:00

Our family trip!! Eventhough we've been there early this year (and not really a smooth trip, I must say), I am excited for this one because there will be 2 other families joining us. Our favourite people! Will be expecting more giggles, fun, laughters and of course rowdy kids! As I am approaching 5th mths into my pregnancy and do not think I am in a great state to run after my 2 Speedy Gonzales. I brought along my cousin to help my husband and myself out with the kids. It is also a good time for her to take a break as she have been working very hard every single day.

Except for our travel insurance, most of the planning/itinerary are completed. I didn't have a jacket for me though but well, I will make do with what i have and get one there, if need to. 3 days prior to our departure, I have to go through a detailed scan appointment at TMC as well as get approval letter from gynae to fly off. I just hope everything will go smoothly, to put my mind at ease, before I enjoy myself to the fullest there.

So where are we going? HERE!

HONGKONG! I am sure kids are looking forward to Disneyland again, and this time Eva's much older to enjoy it better. Eventhough mummy couldn't join in much rides this time, it will still be a blast for all! To make it even better, this time, we will be flying off comfortably unlike our last trip (but I do miss their chix ham & cheese croissant!). We will be taking our national airline so that the kids, too will not get restless easily as there is entertainment system for them. Till my next update!

Baby No 3

2011-11-02T16:59:00.000+08:00

From the beginning of my marriage, I've always wanted to have 3 kids before I turn 30. Praise to Allah s.w.t, he granted me that wish this year. I am currently at 4th months pregnancy, and I wouldn't say that its been a smooth sailing one. I had a terrible nausea during my 1st trimester, super sensitive to smell and vomited out food that doesn't settled well in the tummy. It was really a terrible period. Up to date, I have not gained any weight but lost 4kg instead. It would be a good thing, if it does not affect my baby. I will only find out tomorrow, during checkup.

As for gender, I've already had a pair so it doesn't really matter but if I am given the option to choose, I would love to have another boy to accompany my firstborn. Kids are really excited abt the baby and Arian kept counting down to April for baby's due date. I am thankful to be given the chance to experience being pregnant again and to faced the upside and downside of it. For now, I want to enjoy the rest of this pregnancy and pray that both of us survive this journey together, insyaallah.

Staycation

2011-10-11T00:51:00.000+08:00

All of us has been talking abt going for a short trip together, for a start to Batam for some pampering treats and good food. End up the plan never really did materialize. So came the idea for a staycation. It happened so fast and soon one of us came up with a date: 08 Oct 11.

I am devastated as hubby is working on that day and no one could take care of the kids. So I have to declined the gathering and hope to join the next one in future. But at the last min, mum called to bring kids out for some show and to my sis's place. Yahoo! Cleaned up the house, get ready and hubby send me over before he proceed to work.

Venue: Klapsons, The Boutique Hotel.

Theme: Black.

I had a fun time though I didn't end up staying over as its too crampy for the whale size me..hehe. Shared a cab with a gf back to my sis's place where the kids are staying over. We had a great time dolling up, dressed in black and out for a drink then watched live band. Hope to still get the chance to go Batam with them, post birth.

Education

2011-09-27T00:21:00.000+08:00

As much as I hate to say this, I find that pre-school education is just as important to expose to our kids and open to them the world of knowledge. Living in a fast paced country like Singapore, it will be cruel to let them live under the nutshell and keep them grounded at home. I mean how many of us are born to be smart ass?? Even if we are born to be smart, how do we ensure that we are keeping up with the ever changing curriculum and we are teaching them the right stuffs needed to prep them later? I read to my kids daily during bedtime and I am glad that my firstborn is now into reading. I do revision with him. My husband, watched history channel with him, talk abt anything under the sun from cars to science. We help as much as we can as it is our responsibility to also educate them. But I do ponder, is that enough?

I mean, as parents, in my personal view is to teach my kids the way of life, nurture them to be good people, discipline them correctly so that they grow up to be someone useful to the society, correct them if they are wrong and ultimately to always assure them that we gonna be here for them no matter what. I won't say I am doing a great job as a parent, I do have my flaws but I am always willing to learn. I came a long way, coming from a broken family background, told myself that no matter what, my children will not suffer the way I did. Everytime, when I am disciplining them, I can't help feeling like I am such a bad mother. People said, do not discipline the kids the hard way. Talk to them. I for one, don't believe in that bullshit. Depending on the mistakes they did, we access the situation and how to handle it. If I feel they needed to feel a bit of pain, I will. If I feel that, just by talking helps, then I will do just that. Kids being kids, they are bound to be naughty, active, make a mess and so forth. But only from young age, is the best time to correct their behaviour. Anyway, every parent knows whats best for their child. And we all have our ways to handle them.

Arian reading Sly Fox & The Red Hen

2011-09-08T23:32:00.001+08:00

He is now 4yrs 7mths. No pressure, slow but steady progress works fine for me. No regrets quitting my job to attend to the kids and assist them in every way :) Meantime, at the background, Eva is very grumpy because I didn't video her too.

Hari Raya 2011 Day 1 & 2

2011-08-31T23:35:00.000+08:00

Festive mood

2011-08-24T14:32:00.000+08:00

Few more days to Hari Raya but here I am totally slacking. Except getting ready our 1st day outfit and buy few goodies and gassy drinks, I did nothing else. The house still looks the same. No new curtains, sofa cover, table runner, flower etc etc. All look the same as the usual days. I do not mind it one bit. I've told the husband that 1week is the maximum celebration for me. After that, back to the usual routine. Honestly, I do not understand the logic of splurging on expensive outfits, buying new stuffs for the house for once a year event. Importantly, I do not encourage being wasteful. Oh well, not everyone thinks the same so let's just respect one another.

It's gonna be an hectic day for us tomorrow. I am not feeling too good these few days thus the house is in a bit of mess. Got to keep up with the vacuuming, mopping, general cleaning..and the list goes on and on. I HATE the dust! Why can't they just vanish into thin air?

Eva Sofea

2011-08-22T02:14:00.000+08:00

My 28mths old daughter can speak pretty well for her age. Her diction is pretty clear with no signs of baby talk from young. I guess having an elder sibling to communicate and play with does help a lot. Plus she has been attending childcare from 19mths, building up her confidence with people, mingling and making friends. She is adapting well in school, enjoying her time and activities there, recognizing colours, numbers, alphabets and developed good motor skills.

But this little girl of mine, is very stubborn. She sometime wants to do it her way, argued with Arian almost every single day and kinda picky abt food these days. She chose her own clothes, shoes etc. I guess its really the TERRIBLE TWOS phase at the moment. I have cool down a lot with my 2nd child. Arian does not have it easy with me. Maybe because he is my firstborn and I felt that in a way he should show positive behavior for the sister to follow. But I am thankful, he simply adore his sister. I can rely on him to take care of her and take charge as the brother when needed. In fact, he protected Eva each time I got really angry at her. My baby girl growing up so fast and I am bless to be able to watch her grow, spending time and educating them now that I am no longer working.

My kids

2011-08-18T11:02:00.000+08:00

All grown up. They are each other's bestfriend and enemies at the same time! Love them so much :)

Hello world!

2011-08-18T10:57:00.000+08:00

How long has it been since the last update? 2 freaking long years! So many things happened in between and boy its too many to even jot it down here. :) I am now trying my best to keep up with this blog and here's the latest happenings in my life:

1. I regretted not sharing my travel experiences to Brisbane/Goldcoast, KK, Sabah and Hongkong. Its been a great trip with many stories to tell but well lets just move on.

2. Kids all grown up. Arian is 4yrs 6mths now while Eva is 2yrs 4mths. Both are equally playful, mischievious, talkative, friendly and loves to make me angry.

3. I have since quitted my job in May 2011 so be WAHM. I had an online business and was busy with fleas events then, slowing down a lot eversince my helper went back for good. Its just me and kids now. Tough at times, but well I get through it.

4. We are going back to Hongkong for our family trip in December except that this time will be more fun as 2 of our favourite cousins joining us!

5. Something's happening in our life right now. Will share more in time to come.

F1 Rocks concert in Singapore!

2009-09-27T23:39:00.003+08:00

We had so much fun that I'm beginning to missed it already! I want to watch BEP again live in concert..will never get tired of watching them cuz their performance heat up the stage. And Beyonce perfomances? Superb!!!

Selamat Hari Raya!

2009-09-25T22:01:00.005+08:00

Maaf Zahir Dan Batin...

Love from us Firuz, Effa, Arian Danish and Eva Sofea.

Changes

2009-09-16T20:18:00.004+08:00

Heck this blog is good at collecting dust. I just dun have the time or in fact the mood to update at all. Is it always like this when u add the numbers to ur family? haha Oh well nothing much happened. Let me just recap what I can remembered ok?

Hub hospitalised for high fever and ongoing headache which to him is terribly painful. So off we went to Alexandra and he is diagnosed with sinus viral infection. Given medication but no improvement. So 2nd visit he was warded. He is very much better now alhamdullilah
Eva is becoming more like the brother. Cheeky and simply lovable. Now keep demanding attn from us. We cant be away from her for long after she saw us. She will scream! But is a very well behaved baby who give no problem whenever we brought her out. Always smiling and loves to be with us.
Arian is picking up lots of words now. I am proud of him as always. Its great to have a conversation with him eventhough sometimes he talks crap and never serious! hahaha But oh man its not so easy to handle this boy. Everyday I felt like im having more than 1 boy in the house! He is good in music.
We have a new addition to the family. My husband wish finally came true and I am glad for him. I just hope I find the chemistry with it.
Our hari raya preparation is very simple. In fact I couldnt find the right mood to celebrate it. To me, its pretty much the same old thing only that mum is not around here to be with us. Im sure she will have a great time celebrating it with my bro and family in Dubai.
I cant wait for my Aussie trip in Nov. Its gonna be a long flight for us esp now that we have 2 kids in tow. All I need to do is book the car for our self drive and bought tickets to the theme parks online. I hope its gonna be a good break for all of us to spend time together. Insyaallah.
Eva is coming to 6mths soon. Hope fast time passed by. We cant wait for the day she can crawl or even walk!
Hub and me, we are pretty much the same old couple...haha Now that I started work, hard to find the time to spend it alone with him. But our communication has always been great so Im thankful for that. My husband will turn 1 yr older soon :)
Me? Still the moody person..sometimes ok sometimes not depends on the mood for the day..hahaha Work sometimes took the toll out of me.
Im watching MJ concert while typing this...

Ok done. Will post pics of the kids and videos soon..bye!

Need a good massage

2009-08-26T23:16:00.004+08:00

How long has it been?? I have no time to update much and here am I making some effort to do so. Life is pretty much routine. Arian fell sick but thankfully recover the next day. Now its my baby girl turn. And my usual smiley girl is all cranky and gloomy. She successfully did her full turn at 4th mths! And now she started teething. Pretty fast and quite on par with Arian during the same age. Hmm what else? Oh my Aussie trip is confirmed! Remember months back, I blogged abt not able to travel far and my plan to go to Australia went down the drain due to the high stats of H1N1. We decided on Kota Kinabalu, Sabah as alternative. However all changed after a talk with cousin again. Well well the plan finally did went thru afterall :)) I am departing on the nite of Hari Raya Haji for an 8 day trip to Brisbane/Gold Coast. Self drive, no packages. Up till today, my flights booked. Hotel in Brisbane booked. Apartment in Gold Coast / Sunshine Coast booked. Whats left is just to hire a car and we are good to go. And by doing this way, I save myself abt 2-3K! Ok more on that later. Got to hit the bed now!

Ambitions in life

2009-08-09T15:26:00.002+08:00

You know I suddenly realized Im not an ambitious person to start off with. I am not career minded. I have dreams but I dun really care whether I pursue it or not. I am rather simple minded in many ways. If you think I am materialistic, I am not. How you perceive me by reading my blog or the way I talked will be totally different if you have the opportunity to spend time with me. I can be a quiet person too though many will not believe it! But really I do have my quiet and shy moments. I can be a total stranger at times. I used to think its not ok NOT to have dreams in life. You must be ambitious. You must dream big. But now, what matters most to me is seeing how happy my children can be when I'm with them. What matters to me is when all of us are happy, smiling, laughing everytime we get to spend some time together. What is more important to me is my children's education, their health and whether am I being a good mother to them. And that my husband will forever and ever love me and the kids. As long we have food on our table, clothes to wear, the kids can go to school and my family is with me, I guess thats all matters. The rest is just a passing phase. Maybe its just me :)

Misfortunes

2009-08-06T12:18:00.002+08:00

I am supposed to start work on 3rd August but unfortunately on 1st Aug I am down with fluctuacting fever, cough and flu. Smsed my boss on Sunday to ifmd and extended my leave for another week. Monday morning went to the company doc, waited for almost 3hrs! and were told that I had an asthma. Surprisingly I didnt even took notice of that. Was put under nebulizer for awhile to ease my breathing, given medicine and 1 day mc. The next day hub brought Arian to the clinic for his cough. Luckily for Eva, she recovered before we even got the chance to bring her to see the doc. So now I am recuperating at home, left with only few days more before its back to reality. How my heart ache to leave the kids behind esp now that Eva is getting more active by the day. So much fun to be with them. I guess I just have to wait for a few more years before I finally decided to call it quits. Insyaallah.

I ordered a psp for my niece thru ebay. Up till today I have not received the item and have lodged a case with paypal for refund. Numerous attempts to contact seller failed. Via email and call. She sounded so sincere in her initial emails to me and now she is like a missing person. Let see how paypal gonna rectified my case. On the other note, I bought myself a blackberry javelin curve 8900 for a good deal of $400 w/o line. So far I am very happy with it and hopefully it stays that way for a long long time. Its been awhile since I am so into gadgets like this. Its gonna be a long weekend for everyone. Luckily for us, my cousin managed to booked chalet at Aloha Loyang pool terrace so on Sat we will be making our way there. Till then, take care!

The many faces of Eva Sofea

2009-08-05T12:30:00.000+08:00

Money issue

2009-07-27T01:01:00.003+08:00

Some may think that we are living such a good life, spending our money on trips, luxury bags, nice clothes, spa etc etc. But the fact is, we are just enjoying the money we worked hard for. My husband work very hard to give us the life we have now. And I am thankful and grateful for that. But do note that we have our difficult moments too. We started out this marriage with a pretty bad start. Financial wise, we are a fool back then. We have debts/loan whatever you called it. We struggle. And mind you, at the point of time its just the two of us! Perhaps we are too immature then to handle our financial. Then slowly things started to work out. We are doing good and when Arian came into the picture, it just gets better and better! That is the turning point of our lives. Being a parent, we want the best for him. I never think twice abt money if I trust that it will benefits my children. Im happy if their happy. Like the way my husband puts it: We live our life for our kids. We work for them. We give the best to them hoping that in return it will do them good. As long as we dun spend more than we should be.

Ok back to the issue abt money. So my husband and I we saved for the future. Or rather for emergency purposes. It can be quite depressing when u see your savings depleting not because you spend on it. But because you loan it to others. To ask for loan, open your mouth and immediately you'll get it. For us to get it back, it can really take years. And by then, we may at times in need of money for last min emergencies. And it can really bother me if I have to keep asking. I feel like a loan shark (literally). We are NOT well to do. We are just like any others who get up every day to work so that we can pay the bills and bring food to the table. We got kids to feed. When we have extra we spent it on stuffs that makes us happy. And i dun think it is wrong cuz we are using OUR HARD EARNED MONEY. Everytime I told myself, never to loan it to anyone anymore, I ended up doing otherwise. Why? Cuz I am being put in a difficult situation. People have to understand that we DO have difficult time just like any others. I ever loan others money too but I blardy make sure I keep my promise to pay at certain dateline. What pisses me off is that when money is in ur hand, rather than paying ur loans, you spend on unnecessary things! Like seriously, WTH!

Aahhh I am just venting my frustation here. No hard feelings. I just wish that I can recoup my savings back and FAST. Fat hope, I think!

Wild child!

2009-07-17T22:54:00.002+08:00

Start a band

Get high

Be vulgar

You are too young for that Eva Sofea! :))

I wonder where she learn to pose like this?? LOL!

Day 4

2009-07-13T22:35:00.000+08:00

Destination: JB/Spore

Venue: Mum's place and Home Sweet Home

Date: 13th July 2009

So at PD, we hang around a lil bit that morning, had breakfast, went for a swim, basically just a relaxing day. After late lunch, around 3pm we make our way to JB. Hub wanted to drop over at mum's place to visit her and let the kids spend some time with their grandparents. So we only head home around 11pm and reached 12am plus. Overall the trip is fun though too adventurous at some part but then again the experience will be unforgettable. Me and hub got to spend time with the kids and each other. As well with my sister and family. I am waiting for the time when all my siblings can come together for a convoy trip. It'll be great! So moral of the story from this trip: Book your hotel in advance! And dun be too adventurous! :)

So hub, where next? *wink*

Day 3

2009-07-12T22:00:00.000+08:00

Destination: Port Dickson

Venue: Unknown
Date: 12th July 2009

At Perak, we should never miss their 'masakan kampung'. I tell you, its truly finger licking good. We stopped for lunch at random stall but never regretted the decision. We filled the tummy with variety of delicious dishes. Frm Perak, we drove straight to Port Dickson which took us abt 3hours plus. And again no booking of hotel but this time I am confident we will get one for us since its a Sunday. So we recce and I have no idea why my nephew stopped at this Mayang Sari Hotel/Apartment. We were offered a 2 bedroom apt at RM160 and I dunno why at that point of time everyone readily agreed. But the funny thing is I dun see any bellboy to welcome us. No security guard. No other human beings walking arnd the hotel. So I am a bit apprehensive. Its like a big mystery to me. 1st grumble: Bitten by moisquitoes even before we step our foot inside the room. 2nd grumble: The room. Though it is furnished with teak furniture, I just dun feel comfortable. What more when I sat on the bed, all I felt is just the spring :( Then I had difficulty closing the toilet door. By then, I am grumbling all the way. Ok I may sound like some kind of spoilt brat here but hey we are on holiday! The least is to have a comfortable place to sleep in. After much thoughts, I decided to call the initial hotel that I wanted to check into - The Legends. When they told me that there is still many rooms available, on the spot I called the reception to cancel our stay there. We are charged at RM80 for that 1hr but better than nothing rite? I took the premium tower seaview at The Legends and it cost us RM299 per nite which I dun mind paying for comfort :) And that decision to move is the best ever. The room is super nice with huge bathroom. The view is beautiful. Plus we slept in a comfortable bed! hehe

More pictures can be found in multiply and FB!

Day 2

2009-07-11T21:36:00.000+08:00

Destination: Ipoh, Perak

Venue: The Lost World of Tambun/Cameron Highlands

Date: 11th July 2009

We checked out hotel around 10am and make our way towards Perak. Stop at an R&R for lunch and link up with my sister. We reached our destination in 2 and half hours. Spend abt 3hrs at the waterpark. Not much adult rides for us to take but Arian sure had fun there! Eva too but she didnt stay too long. We depart frm Tambun around 6.15pm and our adventurous journey starts here. We were too eager to reached Cameron before night falls and have our dinner there. W/o making any booking of hotel, as school hols is over, we just drive up to find out that no hotel available! None, zilch! How unlucky can that be u tell me! Even the cheap motels is fully booked. We were already panicking. Drive around for 3 freaking hours (plus stuck in a jam up there!) and still couldnt find one room for us! Time checked: 10pm plus. No room, no dinner yet. And to make matter worse, the kid's hot water has run out. But luckily we managed to top it up at one of the restaurant there. Thank god! After hours of finding a room but to no avail, I made that decision to drive back down to Ipoh. You can say that the drive up to Cameron is a wasted trip. No dinner, no hotel, no nice views, just driving arnd in desperate need of a room.

If you think thats the worse part, you are wrong! Driving down back to Ipoh in my opinion is worse! To drive down a winding road, super dark with no lights and no clear markings is terrible! Plus its quite hazy and I just prayed that no supernatural thingy play a prank on us esp when its a dangerous (and scary) route we are driving in! To tolerate a 50km drive is super unbearable. I am already feeling very sleepy but forced myself to keep awake for husband's sake. It is already a super stressful driving for him but alhamdullilah we survive! And good thing for both of us is that the kids are well behaved. And bless the dvd player inside the car to keep Arian entertained. And Eva? As usual, always having her beauty sleep. It could be worse if both my kids are crying for attn and demand some comfort. We reached Impiana Casuarina hotel in Ipoh around 1am. Totally shagged and super hungry. Imagine the last time we all had a proper meal is at 12pm! Room service is super ex so no choice dragged ourselves to go out and have some seafood! And I am glad we all did that cuz the meal is simply satisfying. Slept around 3am. And we all still joke abt the cameron trip. And I dun think I will be making any trip there soon. Traumatic I think :))

Msia trip: Day 1

2009-07-10T21:13:00.002+08:00

Destination: KL

Venue: Dorsett Regency Hotel

Date: 10th July 2009

We depart from Spore around 1030am via the 2nd link. Journey took 3hours to reached. Checked in hotel, rest awhile and make our way to Pavillion Mall. First stop: Lunch at Tony Romas. As usual it never disappoints :) It is costly but totally worth it lah! The rest of the day, we just window shopping, bought something for Arian at Quicksilver kid's and dinner at Old Town cafe. Delicious noodles they served! Bought J&Co donuts to tapau back to hotel. Arian and my nephew went for a short swim while I go for a foot massage which is not so heavenly hehe.

Eva turning 3!

2009-07-09T23:37:00.003+08:00

3months not 3yrs ok :) Alhamdullilah she is growing well, healthy and a heavy sleeper! LOL. At this age, she is doing well in her developments too. We can now baby talk to her and she will respond to us very well. I love it when Eva and daddy having some bonding time. You can hear her giggling so loudly and responds to her daddy each time he asked her a qns. Big bro, Arian as usual loves to disturb her. But he is doing well in carrying out his role as an elder, helping me out when I need him. At times when I see him talking to Eva, I felt proud that he is doing a good job caring for her and protective over her :)

I will be back to work in approx 3wks time. How time flies and I wish I could extend it for another few more mths! But its back to reality. Time to get my heavy butt up and work! I had a talk with hub that I will quit working and care for the kids in 5yrs time. At the same time, perhaps do some part time work. I dunno, this is all planning but I wont know what future might hold for us. So insyaallah, who knows it might come true afterall :) We are going for a short break tomorrow till Monday. Drive up to KL followed by Cameron and end at Port Dickson. That is if there is no last min changes to the route. A good time again for us to relax and spend time together. The only thing I dread abt going on a holiday is the packing and unpacking part! Aarggghh sometimes I dunno what to bring, whether its too much or too little. Hmmm. So hope all went well for us during this 4 days. Have a good weekend everyone!

Goodbye MJ

2009-07-08T22:06:00.004+08:00

Having to watched the Michael Jackson memorial is pretty heartbreaking. I tried to control my tears but finally lost it when his 11yrs old daughter, Paris make her speech. It is a pity to see such a talented entertainer gone too soon. And such a painful thing to even put myself in the children's shoes. I hope they are in good hands. His departure will only meant one thing: He is free from all accusations, torments and sufferings that he got to go thru throughout his career life (and childhood). I dun think there is any other artiste like MJ. A talented man he is, a great musician and entertainer and a good samaritan. I've never believe he did the things he is accused of doing. I guess when you are famous/rich, people just got to find something to bring you down. I still find it hard to believe that he is gone forever. Goodbye Michael. May you rest in peace. You will be remembered always.

Eva

2009-07-06T16:17:00.001+08:00

Bliss

2009-07-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

I was having terrible menses cramps earlier today. Got bibik to fetched arian from sch. He came back asking me "mummy akit? (sakit). I said yes and he said bismillah and massage (or rather rub!) my tummy. Happy :)

A New Addition

2009-06-26T13:07:00.005+08:00

Congratulations to dear friend Norliana and husband for their new addition: Muhd Arfan Shah. Finally its over and time to enjoy motherhood now with 2 kids in the family.

Conversation with Arian

2009-06-24T14:40:00.002+08:00

1. I showed Arian and said " Arian looked thats a big fish!" His reply? "No mummy not big fish, thats dolphin! I said no its just a normal big fish, he still insist thats dolphin. ok lor u win!

2. Eva cried. Arian said "Sweetheart why? Eva why? Dun cry ok..ssshh sshh come come (while showing a gesture to carry her).

3. Yesterday nite Arian said to me, " Mummy sleep ayan (arian) loom (room) ok" Mummy garuk, ayan nak sleep.." Eva? Eva sleep mummy loom hahaha budak ni mulut mintak kena gigit..

4. Eva pooped. Arian went to take a look then said "Eeeeeeee bucuk!" Padahal before that I clean her up already. Action byk.

5. He insisted to bring his toy to school. As predicted its not with him when he came back. Daddy asked " Arian where's your toy?" First reply: "Inside bag". Daddy asked again " Its not there. So where's ur toy? He replied " Inside nose!" And he showed his nostril to daddy. Classic! Muahahahaha

To be continued with more of our conversation with Arian........ :)

Happy 26th Zarifah Bakar!

2009-06-23T11:09:00.000+08:00

Alhamdullilah Allah let me live for another year. Another year for me to see my children grow. Another year for me to appreciate life. Another year for me to spend wonderful moments with my family and friends. Another year for me to be more wiser. Insyaallah to be a more better person. I could never asked for more. Life is great just seeing people that matters happy. Life is great having my husband and kids with me. Going through wonderful and happy journey together. I am contented. I have friends that loves me for who I am. I have family who stand by me no matter what. I have beautiful kids that never fail to make my day. A gifts that is most precious to me. I have a supportive husband who shared my sorrows and happiness and am glad that he is still by my side. Thank you Ya Allah for all that. I am indeed grateful for the blessings. Amin.

Twin's 5th birthday

2009-06-14T11:18:00.003+08:00

Theme: Ben 10

Dress code: Green/Black only.

Venue: Safra Jurong

So I prepared the clothes to wear for the 2 kids and hub. We left home at 330pm, the place is nearby to home so took us only abt 7mins to reached. The cuzzins formed a band and hub was the appointed drummer. Overall I love the food catered by Eatzi catering, the place is nice to have kid's birthday cuz its linked to a huge maze and we all had fun at the end of the day.

HAPPY 5TH BIRTHDAY IRFAN & IRYAN HIDAYAT!

Me and my beautiful kids

2009-06-06T15:04:00.005+08:00

And the boy got his bike licence! hehe

Arian's 1st day of childcare

2009-06-05T14:35:00.000+08:00

Well it wasnt a bad start afterall. He cried of course like any other child would. But at the same time is participating well in class. Morning would be the difficult part. He would delay himself, even bathing him is a problem! Then came the separation part, he would cry for "mummy, mummy!" But after I left he is doing fine, independent like he usually is. Its only a week now and hopefully in time to come, he will do better. All it takes it just more time to adjust himself. Oh well the house looks very empty w/o him. So peaceful suddenly. No more " Arian can you stop it!! hundreds time. My cheeky boy is all grown up and I am proud of his development. He is active, VERY active in fact but at least I know he is not a crybaby and able to be independent. He loves to do things on his own, picking up new knowledge pretty fast. Choosing his own clothes each time we going out. Bathing and brushing teeth on his own. The 1st thing he do after came back from school is to kiss Eva. And that is the start rowdy and noisy moment at home. The kind that I miss during the day :)

The ones I live and breathe for

2009-05-29T11:52:00.003+08:00

Thank you Ya Allah for blessing me with beautiful children and a wonderful partner. Despite the flaws and all, I am very thankful to be where I am now beside my family who never fails to brighten up my days. Thank you for the challenges you gave me to strengthen my faith in you and to make me a stronger person. Firuz, Arian and Eva, you guys complete me. I love you all with every beat of heart. My life is more fulfilled now as a mother and wife. I've lost my very bestfren along the way but I guess God has something else in store for me. I believe whatever happened, happens for a reason. I believe in fate. I still love u as a fren and never once I disregard u. I still think abt you and wishes only the best for you and family. A new addition is on the way but sadly I share the joy from far.

Oh god, please help!

2009-05-23T16:33:00.003+08:00

Its been an exhausting and challenging week for me. To divide my attention between Eva, Arian, husband and my own time is seriously not easy. Eva is demanding more attn from me. She will cry the moment she sense I am not around. She must have a smell detector or something..haha. Arian need me to be with him too. At nite when he request to sleep with me, I thought it would be the best time to cuddle him up and have a small chat. But Eva came into the picture. She will just cry. Milk given, diaper changed but seems she is not contented until I cuddle her up :) I pity my boy sometimes cuz I know he needs attn from me too but at times I just couldnt keep up! And he will start to do things that make me angry so my focus will be on him. Even if it means I have to scold him in the process. I am thankful though that he is independent and will help me out if I need him to. I am really trying my very best and I believe in time, I will get use to the new adjustment. Arian will soon start his childcare 1st June and hopefully he loves it. I will resume work end of July and as of to date, bibik is doing a good job managing the household and caring for the kids. Now that Arian will be in childcare, she can focus her attn to Eva while me and hub are working. Gotta go now, need to take a short nap since everyone else is sleeping too. Will be going for a short trip to KL tomorrow :)

Happy 6th Irfan Haqeem!

2009-05-18T19:28:00.003+08:00

To my dearest nephew who is far away in Dubai, Happy 6th birthday! Gosh time passed so fast and u'll be going to P1 soon. Dear Irfan, I know u will grow up to be somebody successful. You are a smart boy and loving brother to your younger siblings. And I hope it will stay that way all the way. Insyaallah. Though we are far apart and rarely meet, the 3 of u (and soon to be 4!) will always be in my heart. I cant wait for ur next trip here so that we can go kai kai again ok! Love you dear boy and take care! Muacks!

Misses you,

Aunty Effa

Uncle Firuz

Arian Danish

Eva Sofea

Celebration time!

2009-05-10T13:43:00.004+08:00

Happy Mother's Day & Happy 1 mth old Eva Sofea! Alhamdullilah. Its nice to see you putting on weight esp on those cheeks?! We love you so very much....

One thing abt this girl, she prefers to sleep in between us at nite. No matter what, the moment we transfer her to the cot, she will cry and start to get cranky. But she will be fine in the cot during daytime. Hmmm very manja lah this one! Very small and looking so cute, she is really like a doll..haha

Holiday!

2009-05-05T17:00:00.003+08:00

Told myself after I have safely given birth, I want to go somewhere for holiday. Just 4 of us to spend some time together away from the family. Been searching for an appropriate destination for us esp when you are bringing one hyperactive toddler! So Australia I decided. Since i will be on 4mths maternity leave, its a best time to getaway w/o having to sacrifice ur leave! hehe But because of this blardy swine flu, hub now wants to put all holiday plans on hold until further! So disappointing! Was looking forward for some nice family time in Aussie. The NZ trip in December pun cancelled. He wanted Eva to be a bit older before bringing them for a road trip holiday in NZ. Ok lah I guess just go with the flow. But I am praying hard that this outbreak will go off pretty soon (of course before my maternity leave ends!) My dearest bro invited us again to Dubai since I am having a long break. But the weather there right now is super hot so I guess got to give it a miss too. Lets just hope things goes my way :)

Authentic CD bag for sale!

2009-04-30T11:55:00.003+08:00

Selling Price - SGD 500 (Negotiable for really sincere buyer)

Saddle Bag Logo comes with Dustbag, Box, Paper Bag, Receipt & Authencity Card

Bought on 20th January 2007 at DFS Scotts

Retail at SGD 1270

Both Exterior & Interior clean with no stains

Condition 9/10

CD Logo in Silver with hardly any scratches

Used twice within 2 years

Interested, please email me at effiruz@yahoo.com.sg. Dun miss this good buy!

THE Labour

2009-04-19T22:10:00.005+08:00

Ok finally got the time to blog abt this. This is saved in my draft for a week already! Alright lets get down to details, shall we? :)

I went for my 37th weeks checkup on April 11, and Dr Fong said that cervix has opened up to 2cm. So he asked whether I want to go into labour since my contractions is an off/on and me been feeling cramps/pain every now and then. I told him " Yes! Like finally!" So he asked whether I want do it on that day itself or next which is on Sunday. We decided on the latter so that hub got time to go to work and do some handover plus apply leave. So we went back feeling excited and nervous at the same time knowing that tomorrow gonna be the day.

I had a good rest and woke up arnd 9am the next day. Got ready, have breakfast, kiss Arian and off we depart to TMC. Dr Fong came around 1130pm to break the waterbag. Did VE and its opened to 3cm already. This time round, process breaking of waterbag is super uncomfortable. It took quite a while to do it. Dr Fong asked me whether I wanted an epidural later during the labour process. I said No! 12pm pushed to delivery ward. I took a nap and contractions start to kicked in around 1pm. I used the gas on an off/on basis and most of the time I self control as much as possible. An intense feeling to push came abt 4 plus but when the nurse checked im still around 5cm dilated. Nurse and hub keep asking me to take the pethidine before its too late so that it can help me to relax. At around 4.50pm, I finally relented. But at 5pm, the urge to push is super high. I think the nurse stretch my cervix cuz I am only 5cm when last checked. Around 3 push and at 5.04pm, Eva Sofea is finally born to this world! I shud have not taken the pethidine and 'tahan' for another 10mins or so. But then again, I still manage w/o the epidural! Alhamdullilah all went well :) And I must say, giving birth to Eva is not as easy as Arian. Whatever pain I did not felt during Arian, I feel it this time. And there are moments during the labour I thought I couldnt make it..seriously! In fact, from the starting of my pregnancy, it has been tough on me. But it taught me a lot this time. Thanks to Allah, I am now a mother of 2 :)

P/s: And finally I am done with this entry!

My 2nd child. My daughter

2009-04-14T16:38:00.006+08:00

Name: Eva Sofea

Birth weight: 2.53kg at 37weeks 4 days old.

Height 44cm

Place of birth: TMC

Date: 12 April 09

Time: 5.04pm

Labour: 5hours

Method of delivery: Natural birth

Labour story will be next, if I can find the time.hehe To those who gave us your well wishes, THANK YOU!

She's here!

2009-04-12T23:11:00.003+08:00

Alhamdullilah syukur, my dearest daugther is finally born to this world today at 5.04pm. Lets welcome Baby Eva Sofea! It is pretty much a challenging labour this time round but nevertheless I am thankful that I managed to pull thru with the strength blessed by The One Above. This time round it is an emotional journey for me delivering her. I have to go thru so much obstacles with my 2nd pregnancy that there are moments that I thought I couldnt make it. Thank u to my dearest husband who never fails to support and always being there understanding my needs and be my pillar throughout the whole pregnancy. Thank you to my dearest gynae Dr Fong Yang who once again proves that he is indeed worth it. He is caring, patience and always giving me encouragement. I am lucky to have him as my gynae and will not think twice to have him again should I go for No 3 in future (which Im not sure of having! hehe). The rest of my family of course for being there all the time. And Arian, you are one of the main reason I gather all my strength to safely bring ur sister to this family. And I know looking at the way u looked and talked to her, you will pretty much be a protective and loving brother, Insyaallah. In the end, its all worth it. When I looked at her, the pain, the challenges that I've faced is all worth it. She's safely here and I am never been happier!

P/s: Updating from my TMC ward. Hub took for me a premium ward which includes a better facilities and newly renovated room. Seriously, it feels like we are in a hotel room :) Pictures and probably a labour story up next when I'm home. Right now, I seriously need a rest. Good nite!

Happy 60th my father.

2009-04-09T12:32:00.002+08:00

If he is still around with us, we would have celebrated his 60th birthday today. Yes its my dearest late FIL big day. Happy birthday Abah. You are greatly missed. We knew you are now in a better place among those in heaven. Its coming to 2yrs now but there were times we wish he is around with us. We love you Abah and will forever be. And I miss him so much, I wish he is around with us for just 1 day. And as my labour is drawing near, I began to miss his presence even more. I knew he would love to see his 1 and only grand daughter. But I guess, we just have to accept the fact that Allah loves him more. My doa's are always with you dearest FIL. Always. Amin.

Officially shifted!

2009-04-06T14:52:00.002+08:00

Yes, we are in the new house now. Since last Friday. Been busy helping out unpacking, decorating, cleaning etc etc. Been very tiring for us esp hub who is on nite shift and is lacking of sleep for the past few days. Now the house looks more homely than ever. I kinda like the touch of it. Moderm but homely and comfortable. Well I haven't got the time to check out the old house. Hub been going back to and fro checking out the house and he's been telling me he kinda feel sad leaving. You know thats where we first built our lives together after we got married. Lots of ups and downs during the 5 years there. The sweetest memory will be the making and birth of my firstborn, Arian! Oh well, this is where we gonna spend the rest of our lives with the kids for a very very long time...Insyaallah. I wanted to take pics and put it up here but somehow dun have the mood for it :)

Oh yes I am still around, waiting for labour to happen. Been feeling pain here and there but still no constant contractions. Now that its my 37th week, I will start on a walking marathon! An excuse to go shopping....hehehe

P/s: Watching Dostana and I like John Abraham new look! He's HOT! Kalah hollywood actor..hehe

False Alarm!

2009-04-02T14:33:00.002+08:00

Twice! It started on the 31st March where I've been experiencing cramps and off/on contractions. Doesnt feel too good so was advice by hub to get to hospital to get myself checked. Reached TMC at 11pm plus and cervix still around 1cm only. Best thing is, when they did a ctg on me, no signs of contractions. Monitor for few hrs and asked to go back and rest. Woke up next morning at 10am, went to the toilet to pee and saw blood discharge. Got panic and called up my gynae. Again were asked to go back TMC, fearing that my cervix is slowly opening. And again still at 1cm!! But this time, they got to admit me so that can monitor me closely incase my contractions intensify. Waited and waited, still no signs (even after doing squats and going up and down the staircase!). Stayed for a nite and discharge earlier today. Gosh baby is really playing a prank on the parents on april fool's day! Didnt wish to induce or whatsoever to rush the labour cuz im still at 36th weeks. Shall see for another week when baby is consider full term. And hopefully this time, she is ready to see the world :). Naughty Baby E!

Pls give me strength

2009-03-25T19:05:00.002+08:00

I have been under unnecessary pressure and stress these few days. And no, its not because of problem created by me. I am one person who will try my best to accomodate to people's needs and make them happy. But sometimes i feel that I am being too nice. Anyway to cut things short, I would like to dedicate this entry to my dearest husband who's been my pillar of strength during this stressful period. He's been supportive towards what happened and I know as hard as it can be, for my sake, he agreed to help. I just hope that people realize that we are not always on standby mode ready to give our assistance monetary wise as and when they want it. I am thankful for the blessings that Allah has bestowed upon my family. So far alhamdullilah our lives have never been better. My husband gave us proper meal, accomodate to our needs/wants, new clothes and I am forever thankful for this blessings. Both of us have planned ahead for our future. For our children. We sacrificed a lot to be where we are now. We have our difficult moments too which maybe even our closer ones are not aware of. We struggle in our marriage when we first start out. In the end, we still survived. Alhamdullilah syukur for that! I for one never want to take my husband for granted. Even up till to date, I feel ashame to talk to him whenever I need help (to help others esp my own family). But at times I am put into a situation where I am torn between 2 loved ones. And I hate that. But I guess life is as such. Never a smooth ride but instead all the obstacles, challenges is to let us be a more wiser, mature and stronger person. Perhaps the blessings that Allah has given us now is for us to do something good to others. Insyaallah. Whatever happened is a life experience for all of us. And dear husband, thank you. For EVERYTHING. You have no idea how much I cherish you, your help, your support..Thank you for always trying to make things easy for me. And sacrificing for my sake. I love you and insyaallah we will stand united throughout our lives together. Amin.

Updates

2009-03-22T23:44:00.005+08:00

This is left in my draft waiting for time for me to complete this post..hehe

Hello! Its been awhile isnt it? Few things to update so here we go:

Pregnancy:

I am reaching my 36th weeks mark very soon. Insyaallah all will be well and hopefully baby is doing fine inside too. So far the only difficulties I am facing is when I get breathless or when I experienced some pelvic pains. As much as I am anticipating early arrival of Baby E, I too go with the flow. Let her decide when she wants to see the world and her family :) Insyaallah. Last checked, I put on abt 500g from the last checkup. Oh yes we finally decided on the name :)

Arian:

As usual, this cheeky boy never fails to amaze us. He keeps showing us new things everyday and we soon realize that our boy has grown so much. Aahh I wonder how's its gonna be like when we have another addition to the family. I do hope that Arian will be a protective and loving brother to his sister, insyaallah. As time is drawing near, he get pretty close to me. Sometimes clingy, sometimes rebellious. I love talking to him, seeing him doing funny things to make us angry/entertained at the same time. We took a break last weekend checking into Conrad to spend some quality time with Arian. He loves it each time we brought him out and spend time with him. We love our time in Conrad. Given a high floor with beautiful view, great service and great location to just walk around. I surprise hub with a spa treatment and he loves it. Once checkout on Sunday, its back to 'new hse project' again!

New house:
The house is almost 80% complete. We are done with the painting so we can actually start to slowly shift our boxes to one of the room there. I am targeting to shift in officially by 2nd week of April. Hopefully by then, all reno work will be settle and house has been furnished. And who knows we shall just welcome Baby E there! This coming Sat we gonna be at the new place probably the whole day, doing some clean ups, waiting for some deliveries and transporting items over.

What's Up?

2009-03-10T19:35:00.005+08:00

Been very busy with work (yes I'm back to work finally!) and also with the planning of the new house. We have finalized the quotation with the contractor and reno work will start this Thurs. Excited and hoping that the turn out is how we imagined it to be. Bro-in-law is kind enuff to offer help to paint the house so that we can save the $1200 painting service. And painting starts on Sat. I am really nervous abt it, hoping that the colours turn out good. It is really a headache choosing the right colours for each area, and trying to play it two tone. Insyaallah it will look good ya. We estimated all to be settle before I gave birth in April. We have yet to buy our bed, tv console and sofa etc etc. Good thing we got our bonus this month so it does help out a bit financially.

Ok enuff abt the house. Hub have decided to place Arian in childcare come this May/June. He is a bright boy and it is a waste to just keep him at home and furthermore with the new addition, I guess it will be tough for bibik to handle both when I get back to work. Mum will not be around at all times to help out and furthermore I dun wish to burden her. Its time for her to relax and enjoy her retirement. Lets just hope it will do good to my son, insyaallah. Anyway abt the pregnancy, well I have abt 50 days to go before I'm due. And as the date is getting nearer, my son is clingy towards me. But at the same time, he also rebels. My family said is quite normal for his behaviour to be like that but overall my boy lights up our lives each day with his funny antics :) I will start off my maternity leave 8 April and will only resume work on the 3rd August. Pregnancy updates? Well Baby E is getting more active but not as much as her bro. I guess this girl will be more well-behaved with a quieter nature. Oh well we shall see. My tummy is not as big too and so far I only put on 5kg in total. I have started having back pains, body aching all over, cramps at times..Oh god, I just got to survive for a few more weeks!

Busy march!

2009-02-27T14:00:00.002+08:00

We are done with the 1st Hdb appt yesterday. The completion date will be on 23 April so lets just hope I've given birth by then. Right after Hdb, we met up with the reno contractor to discuss what need to be done to the new hse. Minor reno involve since the new place just renovated last yr march. We just need to add a bit of our 'taste' to it :) It is a fun process to plan, decorate the new place. But it is also very tiring esp at the same time we are anticipating the baby arrival. All bundled at one time. Oh well, try to get it done by 1st April so that I can rest and wait for the 'moment'. I am playing with the idea of taking an early maternity leave say starting mid March. So that I can rest at home and settle the house issue. Me still thinking abt it and shall discuss again with the habibie. Cuz the disadvantage is, taking it early means I need to come back to work earlier too :( If Baby E arrives earlier as expected say 2nd wk of April, then I guess its not too bad. But what if she decides to come out say her due date which is end April?? Haizzz. Its ok I shall still report to work on 2nd March and see how it goes. Let me at least complete 2 wks of March before I decide what to do next.

Now I am surveying where to get nice and cheap wallpaper for my living room + master bedroom area. And also surveying for suitable furniture to be placed at the new flat. And how to decorate the kid's room (Arian will be sharing his room with baby for time being). Then there is also their playroom to consider plus my own room! I am feeling the pressure already :( See, told ya I am busy! take care!

Girly time!

2009-02-20T14:41:00.007+08:00

So yesterday went for my 30th wks checkup. Alhamdullilah the weight and positioning of the baby looks fine so far. Weighing at 1.2kg, her legs is at the bottom right now. Aside from the pelvic pain that I notified my gynae, I also ifmd him of the backache and insomnia that I'm starting to get. Due to the frequent braxton hicks that I'm having, I need to take medication to relax my womb. He is worried that the false contractions might just be a real one if its not put under control. And at this stage, it is not safe to go for early labour. I must at least hit my 36th wks. Oh so far I put on around 5kg only, yes u heard me right! hmmm..My hospitalization leave extended for another week which means I will officially start work again on the 2nd March. Work for another 6wks (hopefully I can tahan that long with no prob!) and I will start my maternity leave and countdown on the arrival of my princess. Insyaallah. Scared, excited, nervous feelings all in one. hehe And I have so many things to do but dunno when to start. I got to start doing bit by bit :(

After the checkup, meet up with my fav gfs in town. Its been a really long time since we last met. It is really fun to have that girl talk, having lunch, window shopping. I miss it already :( Wanna do it again soon, else after I pop then! We accompanied Tini to checked in at Fairmont Hotel. Simply loves the view from the room on the 16th floor. Huge room, nice bathroom, LCD tv etc. Told hub maybe one of these days we can just stay 1 nite in that hotel for a relax getaway..hehe We then went for lunch and hub is on his own doing his own window shopping..hehe the plan to bring Arian out were pushed to nite time. We brought him to IMM to look for his shoe and finally after contemplating for long, we bought it and get a similar one for dear daddy too. I think they looked cute :)

Craving

2009-02-19T15:05:00.000+08:00

Well around 2 weeks back, I kinda crave for a cake. To be precise chocolate cake. The urge is too strong and luckily hub is around to drive me to Prima Deli to get one. Luckily my fav 'chocolate cravings' (yes thats the name!) cake is still available. So since Arian bday just passed like a week prior to that day, I thought ok for the fun of it, why not just get a candle and u know sing him a bday song again and let him blow the candle (trust me, simple thing like that can make him really happy!). We did just that. Qid is around too so both are thinking that we are celebrating their bday, padahal mummy dia yg craving! hehe. Aahhh children, easy to get them smile :) So the bottomline is, I get to satisfy my craving and I too get to put a smile on the kids esp my boy. Win-win situation ah!

Miss you

2009-02-16T12:15:00.002+08:00

Told the husband earlier on that these few days I miss my brother so much. Like suddenly the feeling just came by. Hmm not sure why. Hope he is doing good over there in terms of health and everything. And I am feeling breathless again at times. And I think I've started on the braxton hicks too. And why is the weather so humid this few days? I get pretty pissed over small little things. Blame it on the weather..yey rite! hehe Oh well, I need a rest.

Finding THE Name

2009-02-13T18:05:00.002+08:00

Hello 3rd trimester! Oh well, I have not prepare anything yet for Baby E. Totally slacking this time round! hehe. I have came up with a to-buy list and plan to do the shopping prob mid march. Shop online a bit for her and as usual it can be very addictive :) We have not even come up with a confirmed name for her as yet. The first name that starts with E is pretty much settled cuz that is given by Arian. He is comfortable calling his sister with that name so we would want to keep it that way. 2nd name is the headache now. Whatever hub come up with, I disagree and vice versa. So today what I did, I sms ppl that matters etc family members to ask for opinion. We gave them few names that we came up with and let them vote lah! hahaha so hopefully we find one suitable name for Baby E. Insyaallah

My next checkup will be on the 19th Feb. I really hope that baby is growing well and reached a certain milestone. I dun mind if she remain small as long as she is healthy and no complications in the pregnancy. The week after I will resume work. Work for another 6 more weeks before I start off my maternity leave. Aahhh 4mths of it! But I am sure time will pass pretty quickly what more I am kept busy with 2 kids now. We are still discussing abt putting Arian in a childcare. With 1 super active toddler + an infant, I dun think bibik can handle it. It will be pitiful for her to handle both when I went back to work. I know it can be very tough and tiring. So ya, decision need to be made. Ok till the next entry. Take care.

Futsal

2009-02-09T14:34:00.004+08:00

Last Friday nite, I accompanied hub for his futsal game held at Fico Club which is super near to our place. Its been many years since he last met his secondary school mates and he is happy to have this gathering. So much to catch up and everyone now has family of their own and a good career. I have total respect for a bunch of them cuz even after graduated from school, started working, get married and have children, they still keep in touch. Friendship that started from sec 1 till today. Amazing huh? I am happy to see years of friendship being maintained that way despite changes in their lives. We end the nite with supper at MCD, Tmn Jurong. Hope to have more gatherings future to come :) Insyaallah.

02.02.09

2009-02-04T14:59:00.007+08:00

The day my baby boy turned 2! Let's look back to the day he first came into this world.

02.02.07 @ 02.15am

4 days old after discharged from hospital from high jaundice

6mths old. He can sit and stand on his own. This is taken during our family getaway to Batam View Resort in Aug 07.

Arian turned 1! Celebrated it at Aloha Loyang. Great place for celebration and spacious enuff to fit my huge family members!

Now 2 yrs down the road, my boy has all grown up. Smart and creative boy he is, we are truly proud to be his parents and also blessed to be given the chance to have a child, to protect, love, care and nurture them. He is progressing very well though may be in a different league from kids his age, still I am contented enuff. No high expectations, just go with the flow.

The cake from Seasons. Specially for my princesses and spiderman :)

Soon to be family of 4, insyaallah :)

Thank you cuzzins for coming all the way to JB to celebrate it with us. Love you all!

The colourful and tasty cupcakes ordered from my fav Kak Sheri! Specially for Arian's classmates.

On the morning of his birthday. Took 1 cupcake and sang a birthday song for him. The plan to go out discarded due to Arian contracted HFMD. Lucky this its pretty mild so far and the boy is still active as ever. Alhamdullilah.

Prior to his birthday, he's been singing the birthday song over and over again. I shall try to upload the video when I really can get a good shot of him singing. But I can tell u one thing, Arian is one funny and friendly boy :) I guess it runs in the family lah..hahaha.

What is he into now?

1) Trying to be Spiderman. Get us to buy him spiderman slippers, spiderman top, spiderman cake..etc haha Everday w/o fail he will switch on the spiderman vcd..sigh

2) He loves taking pictures. So my Casio is being sacrificed by him. I guess I should count down for the day Ms Casio will die down on me :(

3) He loves making up song..pretty funny if you got the chance to come across those days when he is the mood.

4) Always argumentative. When I teach him, he teach me back lah!

5) Pretty imaginative boy he is. One day, I caught him whip out an imaginary phone frm his pocket and started talking. After awhile, he close it and put 'it' back into the same pocket. There are times he try to scare off his cousins by calling out some 'momok' to 'tangkap' them..haha

He is all grown up, right in front of our eyes. Aahh soon in 2mths time, he will be an older brother. I trust that my son will be a protective and loving brother. Insyaallah, amin. To you my dear son, we love u with every beat of our heart. We promise to take good care of you, to support and always be there for you.

Love from Mummy & Daddy

CNY

2009-01-28T10:54:00.003+08:00

4 days of long weekend! It doesnt make any difference to me who is now on long leave and hub is working covering for his chinese colleagues :( But well, on Monday I make a trip down to JB with my sister to sleepover at dad's. We dropped by at mum's to drop the kids while we went shopping at Jusco (meant for this wkend bday celebration). Coincidentally we linked up with another sister of mine and all of us (4 cars in total) drove over to dad's and had a great time spending our day there. Arian is the most happiest, despite the mosquitoes bites. Running about, playing with his cuzzins, chasing the chicken/duck. He simply loves the big space and it sure benefits an active boy like him! Too bad dear husband is not there to joined in the fun.

This Friday we are all going in again, this time for a birthday celebration held on Sat. Arian is turning 2! I'm sure we're all going to have a blast! I love family gatherings like this :) I hope I will be in great health this weekend. Pictures will be posted once I am back. And husband, thank you for this.

Finally ur mine! hehe

P.s: Eva clutch is really tempting huh...hehe

Dugaan

2009-01-22T14:44:00.003+08:00

Just came back from my monthly antenatal checkup. Baby is ok but slightly on a smaller scale. Most prob due to the fact of my breathing prob affected her growth. Gynae extended my hospitalization leave till the next checkup. Tomorrow another check under respiratory at Mt Alvernia. What to do, sabar jelah ek. All that happened, happens for a reason. I guess this is one of the challenges I got to faced during the pregnancy.

Anyway for those who didnt check on my multiply, I am selling few of my hse items. Items are in good condition though used. Open for viewing before deciding. Transport and dismantling is at buyer's responsibiliy. I guess there is still some more that I need to clear but I will do it bit by bit. Since I am on long leave, I will take some time to sort out the things that is not needed anymore and post to sell. Yes the house is finally sold and we are expected to complete the transaction in April (hopefully before baby is out!). Feel free to view items at http://mypurpleyes.multiply.com/photos/album/150/Items_for_sale

Do email me at effiruz@yahoo.com.sg for any queries. Thanks and have a good day!

My Peter Parker

2009-01-19T14:06:00.005+08:00

Featuring my spiderman!

My son is turning 2 soon, in abt 2 wks time. How time past so fast! At the same time promoted his rank to 'elder brother' status once baby is out..haha. We will be celebrating with family members his bday together with my niece at mum's place in JB end Jan 09. There will doa selamat followed by BBQ and jamming session. I shall also bring some games along! I'm sure it will be lots of fun esp when you have your family around with you. He will have a blast playing with his cousins! I love you Arian. You are still my baby :(

Hello from Mt Alvernia!

2009-01-15T22:16:00.001+08:00

Yes been warded for breathing problem. Now day 2, hopefully will be discharge tomorrow. I miss Arian so much. He is also having running nose so not advisable to bring him here to visit me. Im out of the oxygen and drip so pretty much in comfortable position now. Dear husband took leave to accompany me here. Thanks hub! Gynae came every morning to check on baby condition too, so far alhamdullilah doing very well. I am still feeling breathless at times but not as bad. Been on inhaler and nebulizer to ease the breathing. Whats impt is that baby is not affected though I did highlight to my gynae that at times I have pelvic cramps. That still need to be monitor closely as he worried that it will be frequent and trigger early contraction.

Oh well, taking everything in my stride. As mentioned, with the 2nd one, it hasnt been a smooth one for me. This is the challenge that God has given, so I shall endure till the day I deliver. Insyaallah all will be well. I got to miss the dinner at Carousel tomorrow. Boss is treating us. :( Shall end it here, good nite everyone!

Help!

2009-01-13T15:55:00.000+08:00

I am planning to treat my siblings to dinner this weekend, insyaallah and it must be buffet. Aside from Carousel/Straits Kitchen, is there any other good halal buffet (with reasonable price too) out there??

Anyone been to these places? Pls give me ur most precious feedback.

1. Kintamani Buffet @ Furama Riverfront
2. Paris International Buffet @ Ngee Ann City
3. Sakura International Buffet @ Clementi Woods.

Mummy & Son

2009-01-09T20:48:00.004+08:00

Taken from hub's hp so quality not too good. Totally love the time we spent together. Mummy looks humongous huh?! hahahaha

Too many thing too little time

2009-01-03T18:14:00.005+08:00

31 Dec 08

Make a date with the cuzzins (couple only) to go for dinner, fireworks and prob watch live band. As I am the only one who finished work at 5pm (no half day!), hub met up with the rest first for jamming session. Dinner at Newton, went over for dessert + fireworks at Marina @Keppel Bay (super nice place!) then end the nite watching live band. Pictures will be posted once I got it from the husband.

01 Jan 09

Woke up at 10 to get ready for a relative wedding. After wedding zoom off to Pasir Ris to picked up my goodies from my fav baker, Kak Sheri! Been wanting to order for so long but delaying it. As usual I am never disappointed! This time I order enuff to last for 2wks perhaps? And kak sheri, once again I love your house! And of course, your home made brownie and cheesecake :) Once I reached home, rested a while and make a date again with the cuzzins (this time with kids tagging along). We met up at ECP , Frisk&Romp to let the kids let loose. After all, this is going to be their day. I signed up a package there, at least I have a place to bring Arian to have some fun time. Then to Novena Sq for an ayam penyet dinner :) Ended the nite by letting the kids have a splashing good time at Marina Barrage.

02 Jan 09

Took leave with the intention of sending Arian to school of his 1st day. Funny thing is, we were all late in the morning and was rushing like mad. But when we reached his school, its closed lah! Tak ke fed up! And best thing is, I dun recall given a letter to informed that the school will re-open only on the 6th. Wth! So we send him back, went to survey for childcare around our area then to IMM to buy some groceries. At least my leave is not wasted. Came back rested a while, get the kids to take their nap while I go register Qid for K1 at my area. At nite, met up with the siblings for chit chat session. Ended the nite late again :(

1 more day to go before I grudgingly welcome Monday again. Back to work and that pile of paperworks to do! hehe.

Happy 2009!

2009-01-01T09:49:00.002+08:00

Happy 2009 everyone! May it brings us more happiness, peace, good health and wealth. Amin.

Whats my resolution for 2008?

1. To have another child

- Alhamdullilah we hit the target..hahaha. I am happily conceived with a baby girl and due in April 2009. Insyaallah

2. To have more family trips

Jan 08 - Dubai

March 08 - BKK

July 08 - Kuantan & KL

Dec 08 - Wrap up the year at Penang/Langkawi!

And what will be my plans/goals/resolution for 2009?

1. To safely give birth to my daughter, Baby E (name yet to be confirm)

2. To spend more time with the kids and hub

3. To settled peacefully at the new house which is not far away from the current one..haha

4. To be a better mummy and wife
5. More family trips! Esp that Dec 09 planning to New Zealand. Its gonna us cost a bomb..haizzzz but insyaallah we'll make it. Else Plan B to another country!

Ok dah, tak payah byk2 nanti tak ter-achieve! hehe.

Take care ppl, enjoy the holiday. I sure have lots to plan for the day!

Love,

Effa

At 22 weeks

2008-12-27T13:55:00.003+08:00

So we had another checkup today. This time I decided to bring Arian along so that he have a look at the scanning process as well as to see his unborn sister. As usual, he will never be able to sit or keep still. Running about, as if he owns the place..haha. Oh yes, baby is doing very well. The detailed scan report is good telling us that there isnt any abnormalities and her growth is all well. Baby E weighs at 500g now. A good weight too. So alhamdullilah there's nothing to worry about. Even my discharge report (I did a test cuz been having lots of discharge) showed that there isnt any bacteria or infection. We are very pleased with all the results :)

Next checkup will be on 24th Jan, I will be at my 7mths then. Pretty fast huh? I went thru the previous bills, reports I had when I am carrying Arian. Brought back fond memories that makes me realize how much time has passed and so many changes took place along the way. I will be a mother of 2 soon come April 2009, insyaallah. At 26, it is indeed a dream come true. Oh well, enjoy the moment as it comes. I am going out for a shopping spree with sis later. Seriously in the mood to shop today, dunno why :) Heard there are many good sales around. Probably something for the baby? Have a good day everyone!

Dear both,

2008-12-25T15:06:00.003+08:00

I went through a mini spring cleaning on one part of the wardrobe earlier on. After much thoughts, I finally decided to let go some of my precious hps. Around 5 of them. I still kept some which I couldnt bear to part with. For those who dun know me well, I have the habit of keeping my hp instead of trading it in when I bought a new one. I dunno why, to me its very valuable cuz either I got it with my hard earned money, hub got it for me or there are special memories attached to it. So since now the wardrobe is getting too crowded, i finally have the heart to do something abt it. Its not easy ok.

I then divert the attention to clearing this shoe box of mine which contain all cards, warranty and whats not. Its been awhile since I peek into it and today will be the day. Much to my amazement, I actually kept birthday cards given when I am still 14yrs old up till today! Gosh thats like ages ago..hehe. I read thru all of them and my heart tug when I came across a few given by that precious someone. I still kept her 1st card to me. The one she called me minah cabaret! hehe I also kept the one that is specially designed by her beau. Plus some others. And in one of the wallets, i saw her baby picture that I kept for so long. I also still kept a gift wrapper given by also that certain someone. And a letter that comes along with it. And I nearly teared. Thank god for bibik presence else I would just break down. The content inside the cards is almost the same. Friendship forever which unfortunately break down midway.

Dear E & R, I would put aside my ego for this entry. 2009 is few days away and 2008 has been great though at times bittersweet. I want to start the new year fresh, with no grudges, no painful memories and definitely a more peaceful life. I want to thank both of u for the most wonderful memories you have given me. When i read the cards you gave throughout our friendship, I realize how much we have been thru together esp with you E. I have tried to be the very good friend/sister for you but unfortunately I may have failed. Whatever it is, all memories shared together is the most wonderful and most precious that I will of course kept for life. Thank you for being there when I am at the lowest. Thank you for the friendship and memories. If you both must know, I do appreciate, love, care and treasure our time together. But you if have doubts in my sincerity, then nothing much I can do rite. I have tried my very very best to be a good friend. I wish you both lifelong happiness and wonderful years ahead of you. Congrats R on your wedding. When I found out abt it, I am happy that finally the day has come. Alhamdullilah. Over the years, we all have grown wiser and more mature. And E, just so you know that you are special. For the fact that we shared our deepest secret together, the bond we had over the years, the long talks, the sleepovers, the clubbing days, the jerks we've dated...everything. I have long regarded you not only as a bestfriend but also someone part of me. In one of the card you've written to me, you wrote "Be a friend and sister to me always ya". "And no matter what, it will not change the bond we had when we 1st started out". Remember? I will always be praying silently for your happiness, your wellbeing. Thank you for everything. With this I close this chapter in my life.

New Jurong Point

2008-12-22T12:32:00.003+08:00

We went over for breakfast on Sat and gosh the new extension is super huge lah! I think it is almost as big as Vivo..hehehe. What I totally love is that they now have Burger King, Starbucks (my fav!), Fig & Olive, Adidas, Haagen Daz and lots more. More variety too, shopping wise :) Hmm no regrets for not moving out from Jurong. We nearly got a house in Woodlands but I guess we are meant to still be in Jurong. I love my current place. Super breezy, unblock, nice view and totally cosy. If it wasnt the fact that we need a bigger space , I dun think I would want to move out. Oh well, life goes on..hehehe.

On mc today, been sneezing real bad lately (almost 3wks already!) and yesterday was quite bad lasted till nearly 3am. Got a headache and slight cough. I noticed ever since my 2nd pregnancy, my body seems to be weaker than when I am carrying Arian. I easily get cold/running and headache. What to do, this is the challenge that I got to faced. Gotta rest now. Take care.

Hub's DnD

2008-12-20T08:09:00.000+08:00

Held at Shangri-La hotel. Dated: 12 Dec 08. The food is so-so. The same usual suspects, some new faces too. Hub received his 10yrs service award. Proud of you baby! We didnt stay too late this time as we are leaving for Penang early the next day. Some photos for viewing pleasure :)

To you my dear

2008-12-19T08:30:00.000+08:00

Dearest husband,

When we met 8yrs ago, never once we expect to end up dating each other. Due to our 8yrs gap, we regarded each other merely as brother-sister r/s. But who would have guess that we end up getting closer and finally decided to give it a try. It is tough. Very tough for us indeed. All the obstacles we got to faced to be together, at one point made us feels like giving up. But we never did.

Dearest husband,

When we first had our marriage preparation course, we were told that the 1st 5yrs of our marriage life will be the toughest of all. No matter how many years we knew each other, there bound to have problems. All sorts of it. And yes indeed! All the failures, the huge arguments, the family intervention is making us distant day by day. I hated you at one point of time. And yes I feel like just giving it all up. But a friend told me that perhaps I am just one of those person who will only find a smoother ride at a later stage of my marriage. And somehow, her words gave me strength to hold on. I remembered the good times we had, the sacrifices we've made and I told myself I need to have faith in this. All I need is maybe TIME.

Dearest husband,

Now 5yrs down the road, so much changes has taken place in our lives. We've changed A LOT for each other to made this marriage works. I appreciate all the things you have done for me. I really do. Though I know I am not a perfect wife (or a mother to your children), we are always in a learning process. Looking back at the past, I am amazed we managed to pull through this together. I am forever grateful to The One Above for always giving me the guidance and strength that I never knew I had, to withstand all sorts of obstacles thrown at me. When Arian came into our lives, I felt complete. I knew that our lives will be more brighter, more meaningful. We grew much much closer and happier. We have successfully passed the 1st 5yrs and insyaallah continue to share many good or bad times together in many many years to come. Amin.

Dearest husband,

Just like any humans, you are not perfect. But to me, you have tried your very best to be the best father, son-in-law, husband to our family. With that, you are already a perfect companion for me. I acknowledge your flaws as I do have mine too but we learn to compromise. I love you dear. Very much. Nothing means more to me than to see us grow old and sharing those golden years together. Thank you for always working hard to provide the best for me and Arian. Thank you for never been a demanding person and tolerating me.hehe. Thank you for the understanding you shown to me all this while. Thank you for being you.

Happy 5 years anniversary sweetheart! ALHAMDULLILAH.

P/s: We have agreed not to buy any gift for this anniversary but to save the $ for nxt yr. But still, he surprised me with a card and a new hp. I am seriously touched. Very sweet indeed :) So this entry is dedicated for him cuz writing it in a card wont be enuff!

Lots of love,
Your wife.

Penang Day 4

2008-12-16T21:29:00.000+08:00

The last day of our trip. As usual woke up for breakfast, brought Arian for a swim and started to get ready early. Our flight back home is at 130pm but we wanted to be there early so that it wont be too rushing later. Checked out at 1030am paid RM50 for the airport ride from hotel. Ate lunch at Mcdonalds and just relax while waiting to board the plane. Arian as usual is pretty excited knowing that he will took the plane again. Keep insisting to went in asap which is not possible of course. We safely landed in Singapore around 230pm. Went over to Mac counter to get some stuffs for my sis and only reached home around 430pm. I am back to work the next day while the lucky husband got another day to rest :( Overall we had a really good time bonding with each other. It is one of the best time to spent the much needed privacy with our boy. At only 22mths, surprisingly he is a good travel companion. But of course we couldnt be too adventurous! Though active and doest know how to sit still, I am proud that he can also be independent. He is curious and will asked us qns which of course we gladly ans. He behaves very much like a big boy and seriously I cant believe he is only 22mths! I miss those times I had with him. Well now back to the usual routine and counting down for Baby E arrival next. hehe

Penang Day 3

2008-12-15T20:21:00.000+08:00

We woke up, have a hearty breakfast, took Arian to the beach to ride a horse and then swimming! A relaxing time in the early part of the day. Then we decided to checked out the largest mall in Penang, The Queensbay Mall. We paid RM48 for a taxi ride there! Oh well, the place is quite a distance too, nearer to airport. But its worth i guess. The mall is super huge, I think bigger than our Vivo City! We had lunch at Laksa Shack, tasted the famous Penang Laksa and kampung dishes. Delicious meal we had :) We spent the whole day there, burning a hole in the pockets! I went to Forever 21 and boy, it is so so much better than in SG. The dressing room is super nice and big, with huge mirror and nice chandelier. Every girl's dreams :). And the best part is, the sale there is super good! Really cheap unlike here. And the boutique is divided into sections: The lingerie, the bags area, the accessories area, the jackets, the sale area etc very well divided and not messy. Ahhh I love it! I went mad at Nichii again! The hub bought himself few things too. A cab ride to the hotel cost another RM45. In a day for transport, we spent almost Rm100. Ex huh?

It is a tiring day but totally well spent. We had great time together and came back with lotsa loot. Happy, happy day!

Penang/Langkawi Day 2

2008-12-14T19:20:00.000+08:00

I woke up at 6.15am and shower first. Arian was the last to get ready and we had a quick breakfast (one of the first!) at 745am. A van picked us up at around 815am and off we went to the jetty to board the ferry to Langkawi. The journey is pretty smooth and we were seated in new seats which makes it even more comfortable. But it is a 3hrs ride (the last time I took I remember it is only 2hrs!) though good thing is we slept thru most of it..hehe. Upon reaching there, we were greeted by our private tour guide. The ferry terminal at Langkawi has changed so much. There is Starbucks, Kenny Rogers etc etc there now. I took the free and easy package so that we can choose the place we want to go. First stop for lunch! Too hungry to go anywhere else. Then off to Underwater World. Ok I personally think ours is better, more well-maintained though I see more variety of fishes there and also the place is more spacious. What horrified me is that the nursing room stinks and i saw cockroach lying dead there! I told hub jokingly that if anyone doing breastfeeding, I dun think their breastmilk would want to come out! Ok lame I know..hehe But we decided not to change Arian there cuz I cant stand the smell at all.

After that, we requested to go over the legendary Makam Mahsuri. Saw some changes there too. I didnt venture much cuz been there before so let hub have the opportunity to read abt it and take a look at her kampung house. Next stop is Telaga Air Hangat. We both treated ourselves with a massage and I felt so much better (been having stiff neck!). Soak our feet awhile then by the time we knew it, its time to go. Got myself a starbucks at the terminal and we were shocked to see long queue eventhough I think we were there quite early. What is even shocking is that by the time we were inside the ferry, the seats are mostly fully booked. The seats look old and crampy. I got to be separated from hub and Arian. The worse part of this is: The ride back to Penang is the worse ferry ride ever! The water is blardy choppy and ferry is going very fast making it like a thrill ride. I tried very hard to close my eyes and sleep and not to concentrate too much on it. I am praying very hard that we will reached Penang faster cuz I dun think I can tahan much longer. And I did not. I went to the toilet and puke everything out and it is really horrible. I have a sudden resentment feeling towards ferry rides instantaneously. Arian woke up and looked for me. Hub came over and was telling me that he is not feeling too good also. As the place is quite crampy and he is holding Arian who is sleeping soundly, he break into cold sweat with cramps on his hand. Abt 30 mins to reach destination, Arian came complaining to me that his tummy hurts. And he keep crying. Oh my! Luckily we are reaching soon. The plan to go out to eat dinner has long gone. In the hotel, we massage Arian and get him to poop. We ordered room service and slack in the room. What a day!

Penang Day 1

2008-12-13T19:48:00.000+08:00

We reached Changi Airport early so that we can have time to have breakfast and also window shopping inside. I ended up buying a pre-gift for Baby E from T&Co..hehe Our flight is scheduled to depart at 1105am but due to certain reasons, its held up. But we still managed to reached Penang on time at around 1230pm. Right after takeoff, Arian took a short nap making us have our lunch in an ackward position. The journey from Penang airport to hotel took abt 20mins, thanks to the smooth traffic. Checking in is also a breeze and its nice to know that we'll be having our daily breakfast at Bistro Delifrance which is one of the hotel restaurant. The room is on the 22nd floor with king size bed. Spacious and also nice view.

After signing up a day tour to Langkawi, we went shopping at Gurney Plaza. Had lunch at Pasta Mania and do some shopping for ourselves. I went crazy at Nichii (so much cheaper there and they are having sale!). Bought lots of tops for myself to revamp the wardrobe. We then walked all the way to Gurrney Hotel to have dinner at Steak Grillhouse. Delicious and cheap. Portion is big too. Had an early night cuz we need to wake up real early next day to Langkawi.

To be continued.....

Lets think PINK!

2008-12-10T19:33:00.002+08:00

Yes alhamdullilah its confirmed that I am carrying a GIRL! Relief, excited, happy feeling all into one. So now...lets do massive shopping! hehehe

Calendar 2009

2008-12-09T14:24:00.002+08:00

Oh well I have received the 2009 calendar earlier on and sadly, Arian didnt make it to top 12. None from Singapore. Top 12 consist from HK, USA, Brazil, Ecuador, China etc etc. Takpelah eh takde rezeki. Unless I blonde kan my son..hehehe.

Oh I am knocking off from work in 30mins time and zoom straight to TMC for my detailed checkup! How am I feeling? Really nervous. Eventhough this is my 2nd pregnancy and I kinda know what to expect, but still I pray that baby E growth is all well and we get to see the clearer gender today :) Even if its a change of gender (another penis on the way!) I seriously dun mind. Having Arian brightens up our lives and I could never ask for more happiness. If its confirm today that I'll be getting a girl, well that's a bonus too. One way or another, as long as baby is growing well, healthy, right size with no complications, then I am truly grateful. Insyaallah. We are not bringing Arian along for the scan as can foresee there will be a different kind of distraction for us...hehe. Dia budak tak tahu duduk diam so ya its hard to concentrate.

Anyway Arian keeps imitating what we said and will qns us back the things we qns him! Example, the other day he put his finger into the fan and obviously it bleeds. He did not cry until the panic mummy shouted! While I am putting Burnoil on him, I asked "Sakit boy?". He showed me his finger and asked me back "Mummy sakit??" hehe marah pun jadi ketawa. Then he laughed and told me "Pain!" He is so expressive nowadays, ignoring me when I qns him too much. Well sometimes I just want to irritate him :) My son is growing too fast and I am having mixed feelings abt it :( Esp now that the 2nd one is coming, at times I feel a tinge of sadness overwhelmed me. Watching Arian grew older each mth and showing us his capabilities at a young age is truly a blessing. But at the same time, I wish he is still a baby whom I can cuddle and kiss as much as I want. He is so independent nowadays. Eating on his own, walk and go down the stairs on his own. Threw the rubbish on his own. ON the Barney cd on his own. He even helped out my maid to vacuum! See how fast he's growing?

We have big plans for next yr. Our 2009 trip which I really really hope that it went thru smoothly cuz it is a place I 1st wanted to go for our honeymoon. Due to circumstances we cant afford to. Now that our rezeki is getting better (alhamdullilah) , we really hope to travel as much as we can with or w/o the kids. I have checked out the air tixs for 4 of us (insyaallah!) and it will cost us a bomb but I know it will be worth it. Every trip we went together is all worth it. We love travelling so much and I can sacrifice all the bags I'm eyeing! hehe Well I already sacrificed my 5yrs anniversary gift for it! Told the husband to save the $$ he willing to spend for my gift for this trip. I want to make it there, I really do. And thanks to that 'someone' who inspired me to plan for it! *wink at mamabear*

3 rest days

2008-12-05T18:09:00.002+08:00

I am happy that the long weekend is finally here. Boss and supervisor not around so office is pretty quiet upstair for the whole of next wk. I am looking forward for a date with hub tonite. But hopefully he is not up for any OT. Ok gotta go, Arian is disturbing me!

Holla

2008-12-04T16:23:00.002+08:00

1 more day to go before the long weekend! Unfortunately I cant join my sibling for a sleepover at dad's place in JB due to hub's shift pattern. Hub is only off on Sat and will be working morning shift on Sunday and Monday. Well its ok some other time maybe. We shall plan something together for 3 of us in our lovely hometown..hehe

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Its a start of a holiday mood at work. Most colleagues will be going on leave, some as long as 2 wks! Year end celebration at work this 18th Dec. Hongkong is truly a popular destination this time round. Oh well, I cant wait for my break too. Really in need of it. Stomach is expanding pretty fast after I reached the 18wks. My maternity uniform is not fully ready yet so shall bear with the current one. Lucky I got myself a big size when I first joined here. More comfortable :) 30 more mins before home sweet home!

Pregnancy Updates

2008-11-28T13:39:00.004+08:00

I've not been updating abt the pregnancy for a while now. Mainly because I am feeling too lazy+tired to even update this blog. In fact, there was once I felt like closing it altogether! But too much meaningful memories that I've shared in here and the initial purpose is also to allow my kids to read when they are able to understand better.

Well oh well, what abt the 2nd pregnancy now? How am I feeling? Frankly, my nausea is still there though not as frequent, it doesnt really go off either. It has a mood swing on its own too :( I am not gaining any weight (in fact last checked I lost 1kg!) despite approaching my 5mths soon. Foodwise, I am still choosy. I seek comfort in my Twisties, Tim Tam and Willy Wonka's Nerds. Rice is still not really a favourite at the moment, depending what are the dishes that comes along with it. As the stomach grew bigger, my eyes gets more sleepier. I am more lazier. There are times I dun feel like going out instead relax at home and chill in front of the tv with a laptop surfing aimlessly. I am more attached to my son than ever probably knowing that I will have to equal my love and attention come April 2009. When I watched him sleep, I'll kiss him and held his hand close to mine. Inside I felt sad to see this baby of mine growing up pretty fast w/o us realising it. Soon he will be a big brother and he needs to understand that sharing is the key word now. Even while typing this, I felt my eyes brimming with tears. Awww how sentimental eh? But seriously you will never understand how I'm feeling unless you are a mother yourself.

Luckily for us, Arian is more than aware that he will be having a baby sister soon, Insyaallah. When I reached home from work, he will run to me and kiss the tummy before he salam me. He has choosen the baby name. When he sang his 'own created song', he will insert the sister name in it. He will get sensitive when I said that I dun love him (which of course jokingly esp when he is getting too notty!). He will run to me, kiss me and say 'Sayang mummy!'. He will insist to sleep with me, sit with me etc. Each time I reached home, I will be greeted by a smile and funny antics by him. Aaaa how I love motherhood so much! And how I felt pretty blessed to be given the chance to experience all these wonderful moments of my life. I love you Arian. And I shall promise that you will have an equal attention and love from both of us no matter how many siblings you have in future.

Oh the gynae confirmed 70% that its gonna be a GIRL. But the last checkup, baby is unwilling to show so we shall wait for more during the detailed scanning. Hopefully what the gynae predicted remain unchange cuz I sinfully did a small online shopping already! heheheehhe Whatever it is, my only wish is to have a healthy baby. Till the next entry! Having dinner with the boss again tonight....haizzzzzzzzz

Holiday Plans

2008-11-27T14:54:00.005+08:00

Bali - Fully booked

Phuket - Fully booked
Koh Samui - Fully booked
Kota Kinabalu - Fully booked
Hongkong - Bit too late to book!

After much contemplating and discussion we end up booking flight+hotel to Penang! Been there once few years back and I loved the place! But due to my current situation, am not allow on the parasailing, jetski and the banana boat ride (shucks!) I am only allow to eat and eat and eat. We will depart by Malaysia airline on 13th Dec and coming back 16th Dec. On 14th itself, I planned to bring hub to Langkawi (he never been there!) by ferry for a day tour and have a look at the historical sites like The Makam Mahsuri etc etc. I am in need of a break and spending those quality time with hub and Arian. Cant wait to bring Arian to the beach for a jolly good time and savouring good food in Penang Island! But first, something to look forward to before the trip. My detailed scanning! which will be done on 9th Dec. Gosh, I am 5mths already and baby is in good shape. Alhamdullilah! Whats there NOT TO be happy abt? Holiday mood in Dec, shopping for baby, bonus!, and finally my upcoming 5th year anniversary :) Thank you Allah for all that you blessed me with. I am forever grateful, Amin.....

Pictures courtesy of Paradise Sandy Beach Penang! The place we are going to stay :)

Regrets

2008-11-25T11:35:00.002+08:00

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it. Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back. Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away. Sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and wrong. Sometimes we just don't realize what real friendship means until it is too late. I don't want to let that happen so I'm gonna tie you to my heart so I never lose you.

P/s: I miss you but you are no longer the same person I used to know.

2 Authentic Gucci items for sale! ALL SOLD!

2008-11-22T15:13:00.008+08:00

1. GUCCI Joy Boston Bag (GOLD-small size) (About same size as LV Speedy 25)

Bought in Sep 08. Comes with dustbag, paperbag and original DFS receipt.

Condition 9+/10. Ori price : $840.

Selling $550

2. GUCCI New Britt Wallet.

Bought in July 08. Comes with box, paperbag & original DFS receipt.

Condition : 9+/10. Ori price :$680.

Selling $400.

Good buy not to be missed! Selling on behalf of my cuzzin who is into impulsive mood that time and ended up using both items less than 5times! Her loss is seriously your bargain! Please email me at effiruz@yahoo.com.sg if you are interested.

So long

2008-11-16T15:07:00.004+08:00

I got so much things to tell, pictures to share, update abt the pregnancy but I just couldnt find the right mood to do it. Its the super malas syndrome that strikes me nowadays. Im telling you, the 2nd pregnancy make me a totally lazy person! hehe

Anyways, we had the most fulfilling weekend ever. Thank goodness for hub off days so we plan an all day event for the kids and us on Sat. Qid is sleeping over at my place since its the school holiday. We started our Sat as early as 8am. Woke up, have breakfast, get the kids ready and out we go at 10am. Brought my parents along too. First stop at Singapore Expo to check out the Crocs Sale which started at 10am. We reached at 1030am but were shocked to see a freaking long queue up till the Burger King joint. Estimated waiting time to go in abt 2hours. No thank you! I rather go spend my time somewhere else than to stand in the queue under hot sun with no guarantee that you can get yourself a nice crocs. So off we went to have a bite at BK then to airport to let the kids enjoy the space. Met my MIL there for a chit chat and to viewing gallery where Arian is fascinated with the aeroplanes and request from his dad to board into one..hehe. The last time he board one is when he is 11mths old and its a night flight. We then drop my parents at bro's place and drove over to Kaki Bukit since I want to take a look at pram as well as car seat cover for the baby.

From there, off to Takashimaya to get a colleague bday gift and at the same time the generous me bought hubby 'something' as surprise gift. Hope u love it dear! Our last stop is at downtown east where we get the kids to let loose at KidsExplorer! Arian had the most fun there and the most game to try out anything. Ended with a ferris wheel ride then fetch my parents and we are back home at 11pm. Super duper tiring but well its all worth it. We had fun. The kids had fun. Importantly I felt we spent a quality time together :)

Come back!

2008-11-06T18:07:00.002+08:00

Ok I am done with the silence. It is killing me! I need the husband to come back and tease me so that I can find excuse to have some sort of 'war' with him..hehe SIOW! Everyday its like go work, come back on time, rest inside the room, have dinner, entertain the lil one and sleep at 9pm. Very boring rite?

Dear husband, please come back, I am starting to miss u :( and i need a company to eat burger king..hahaha

Bonjour!

2008-11-04T13:03:00.002+08:00

Sorry I promised to update after I went for the checkup but me too busy+lazy..hehe. Oh yes, the gynae confirmed with us the gender. But like he said, only 60-70% confirm so lets wait some more for the 100% confirmation. We are happy as it is and thankful that baby is growing well. Can see that it is not as active as the brother and definitely not as cheeky! During Arian's checkup, during scan all we can see is his butt. Yes! He will turn and show his butt to us or scratch his face. We only find out his gender abt 5mths and he is 'nice' enuff to spread his legs apart for the doc to see. Ok abt the baby gender, hmmm can I just reveal it after the next checkup? You know, just to make sure :) Other than that, I am still having my nausea though not as bad but still I am not exactly having a good time either. I still have the frequent headache and from the beginning of the pregnancy, I've been urinating so often that I actually feel like wearing an adult diapers! Kidding! And I am starting to have breakouts again. I suddenly felt worse than Ugly Betty! Anyway hub is on 10 days reservist leaving me missing him but at the same enjoying my peace..hehehe. I still have one faithful companion, my darling Arian.

M.I.A

2008-10-31T23:48:00.005+08:00

Hello! I've been real busy these days with preparing month end report and clearing those mountains of neverending paperwork! I just came back from dinner date with my boss and fellow supervisors at Holiday Inn hotel. Hmm dun really fancy the buffet dinner there but hey its all paid for so I just need to fill in the stomach. I will have another bbq session with the whole dept this coming 14 Nov. I am also in task to arrange another dinner session (have not decide which hotel to go) for 2 of my dept team who is unable to attend the bbq. Then comes December the company will have year end celebration with all employees. Too many events to plan but lucky for the pregnancy I am not given the job to plan for games etc. I've scheduled too many trainings for the team for Nov/Dec and I hope the guys are able to cope with it and remember to attend.

Recently my company held a baby contest which I also presume meant for my US counterparts too. We are allowed to enter our child/grandchild in the competition (which I already did) and the top 12 winners will be featured in our 2009 internal calendar (on top of other prizes I guess). Results should be out mid Nov so I will update you guys whether Arian make it to top 12 :) Tomorrow is the checkup and hopefully my gynae are able to reveal to us the baby's gender. Else we got to wait again and contain our excitement a lil bit longer :) But most importantly, I only want to know if baby is growing and doing well. Insyaallah.

Look at that cheeky face! Always up to something!

He is into taking pictures now. The best thing is he prefer to hold my camera and snap aimlessly. When he is in good mood, its easy to get him to pose for pics. Why no picture of mummy, you ask? Well told ya I am in ugly state and in seriously no mood for pictures! Unusual I know :(

To Moms-to-Be or Experienced mothers!

2008-10-25T10:25:00.003+08:00

Is there ever a time that you dont feel pregnant at all? At which month do you actually feel your baby really moves and not just a fluttering feeling? I know I shouldnt be asking this qns esp for a 2nd time mom but this pregnancy is totally different for me. I can feel Arian at 2mths plus and with that I am not really worry. But this time, I feel like hmmm I'm not pregnant? Except for my buncit stomach, sometimes I feel empty inside. Anyone ever experienced the same thing as me before? Perhaps I am just being paranoid. :( One of the pakcik at work told me that perhaps this time my baby is just lazy and not as active. All I am hoping for now is that baby is well. I cant wait for 8 Nov to come!

Bob The Builder! Can we fix it?

2008-10-22T18:43:00.002+08:00

Surprisingly for this pregnancy, I am so into watching Disney and Playhouse Disney channel. Its funny cuz I can actually sat in front of the tv and watch one cartoon after another. Kalah budak kecik! I can sing along to Bob The Builder, Thomas and Friends , Pocoyo etc etc. During the 1st one, I totally not into all this so when Arian is out he doesnt like cartoon at all until recently he slowly watched selective ones..hmmm...

Oh I took the cab from J.P to home just now. The cab driver vented out his frustation at me. He is complaining why China chinese can never speak English? They seems to be everywhere and its only logical to be speaking our national language (which is English, btw) when they are working here. Its for their own good also. He was saying that this ppl are expecting us to learn their language and understand them instead! I couldnt help but input my opinions in this matter too. When he told me his experiences with expat passengers, I laughed. I understand sometimes this cab drivers dun really have a good time either. Oh well! My 2 heroes is under the weather. Arian down with fever, cough and running nose. Hub having sinus, vomitting and bad headache. Weather looks gloomy too. Very depressing huh?

The positive sign

2008-10-21T19:11:00.003+08:00

We have been trying for the 2nd one eversince Arian turned 3mths. Unfortunately all we get is just a negative sign month by month. Till late July this year, I finally told my hubby to stop trying for awhile. Probably we can start trying again nxt yr. It is mentally exhausting.

So one day (early august), I realized that my menses is late for 5 days. I didnt think much abt it cuz been late for almost 2wks before. But I felt different this time. I am always sleepy. I get very agitated easily. I felt super lazy. After work, I make a quick trip to Watson to get a cheap pregnancy kit but am also mentally prepared to get a bad news. Know why? Cuz I am already having menses like cramps, swollen breast (my usual menses symptoms). Oh well, God is Great, the unexpected happened! What's my 1st reaction? I got super shocked and cry lah! Hub was not around as he was having a bowling tournament that day. But I called him immediately to ifmd and as expected, he's esctatic! Got help from my bro to brought me to the nearest women's clinic for a quick scan and seek gynae's advice as I took some diarrhoea medication the previous week. Dr confirmed that baby is at 5wks during that time and all are well. Alhamdullilah. So there it is, another journey for me. As a mother. All thanks to The One Above.